saxton18 Posted February 26, 2013 Posted February 26, 2013 Hello, My name is Dillon I'm 20 years old. I have had a really tough time these last few weeks.. I am a Christian first off and I am losing hope.. I don't think that I can go on.. My girlfriend left me after 2 and a half years, and my aunt died on the same night. I can not handle all this stress. I have prayed to God but there has been no answers... She told me that she needed some time for herself and she said we might work out in the future.. She says there is no hope for NOW but she will not tell me a forsure answer. She still says she loves me, but needs time.. I AM LOSING MY MIND! I am away at college and she is at home going to school. She got in a fight with her mom and had to move in with her dad and has had alot of changes. New school, new life.. I feel like she is pushing me away... Also I think the reason is sexual things we had a sexual relationship and I let that blind me... I would get mad over stupid things... It was dumb of me... But I have chose to take a vow of abstinence because of this... I have no need for sex in my life, it ruined my life... Also my she wont talk to me at all about why she left me.. She told me I was the love of her life and she wanted to marry me.. She is the love of my life.. I love her with all my heart. I just need her to move on.. I feel worthless. Also I am 2 and a half hours away at college so I can not be near my family.. I didn't even get to say goodbye to my aunt.. All I do is cry and I am VERY depressed. I really don't know what to do!!! I think that I am going to give up.. I don't know what to do, I have tried talking to people but they just don't understand me... I am not a crazy guy either. I have never thought about suicide.. I really loved this girl so much.. I feel she is the one for me. Maybe if I am gone she will realize what she did to me? And it would be easy for her to move on? I feel like I can not move on.. I may never love again. My life feels pointless at this moment.. I am seriously thinking of giving up... Also. I have no money to continue college and i am all my own.. I feel like I can not succeed.. The school is raising the tuition by 7k next year and I can't do that even with the money they have given me for a track scholarship... And as for her.. I believe she is gone for good. She wont even talk to me! Also... She said I treated her better than anyone ever has, and that I was the best boyfriend ever. I really wanna kill myself, I can't picture my life without her; we were talking about moving in together and starting our lives together and she took it all away from me. I have nothing now, I wanna drop out of college, and just not be here anymore. All I feel is pain! She swore to me she would NEVER LEAVE ME. I feel so pitiful and I feel like complete ****... I think im going to give up...I need her.. I need her more then anything.. I feel so incomplete..
AlexfromBoston Posted February 26, 2013 Posted February 26, 2013 Well you technically don't NEED her, but you want her. I can understand that. Saxton, why don't you just give her the space she needs and see what happens in a few weeks. This relationship isn't really over per se, rather she asked for a break and said we will see what happens in the future. So, all you can do is give her space. If you begin to text her all day and call her, you could drive her away forever. Just plan on giving her a month of NC and maybe shoot her a follow up text if you are still interested in pursuing her after 30-40 days. Don't get too bent out of shape...if she really loves you she will contact you. Sometimes all it takes is space and time. 1
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