thompson Posted February 26, 2013 Posted February 26, 2013 I had finally had enough of my own obsessiveness, always looking on fb and see what she was up to. She said to me about a week that she wanted to be friends, my response was, being friends never works. I left it at that. So today I was on facebook and read something on her wall that just bothered me and maybe I was reading to much into, but that was the point. I was obsessive - what does this mean, where is she going and with who. All this crap came into my head. I felt like I was being betrayed. I decided at that point that this can not go on any longer or I was going to explode. I decided at this point I was done. She didn't do anything wrong at this point, But I knew I, Me, could not torture myself any longer. I took her off Facebook and blocked her. I also removed a close friend of hers as well. I felt good about it at first and yet am feeling a lot of regret. I felt like, at 42 years old, that this was childish, but I didn't know what else to do. I was somewhat , shamefully, thinking this would get her attention and she would call and ask why I did it. (god I am so effed up) I guess I had to show her, that for once I was in control and I don't need you anymore. However knowing her, after she realized I was not on her fb anymore, she probably said to her self "whatever". Anyway, what's done is done. I gave her 100% and I can walk away knowing that. Still it sucks.
Thunderchild Posted February 26, 2013 Posted February 26, 2013 (edited) Hi thompson "my response was, being friends never works"- well done! Best move you'll ever make. You're absolutely right - it'll never work as long as you have feelings for her. Every time you see her, hear about her etc it will tear you apart. Get the h*ll out, and don't let her use you as an emotional tampon. If her conscience is bothering her - send her to a priest. If she feels bad about herself - tell her to go and get a facial. Better still - just ignore her entirely. Take back your power. Take back your self-respect. Take back your self-esteem. Show her that she is no longer significant (in any way) to you. Take back your life - and have a great future!! Best wishes Edited February 26, 2013 by Thunderchild
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