sir_revengeance Posted February 26, 2013 Posted February 26, 2013 I'll make this long story short. Year 1: Met this shy/soft spoken girl with same interests as me in college. I grow a pair and walk up to her to talk. It was a little awkward but it worked. Then I try talking to her every other week but doesn't go well (weeks inbetween its like we don't know each other). It's like we have no chemistry. Near the end of the semester, I decide to just get it off my chest and move on, so I ask her out for lunch after class (didn't say an actual day or time). Oddly she said yes. She didn't seem nervous or anything. We exchange numbers as well (that weekend I text her first, she replies, I reply back, and she never did again). It does seem she was making an excuse because she mentioned she lives a little far and something about bus transportation. Anyways, then nothing happens at all. Year 2: Last year shes in my class again because we are in the same major. I felt pretty weird because I got rejected by her but I still stayed in class. My feelings had not changed and I deeply hoped I would see her again; I simply didn't expect it. Anyways, I kept thinking of ways to talk to her but I couldn't come up with anything. Eventually I grew a pair again. You see, we both have a little cool device; one of the unique features of this gadget is telling us people in proximity who have the same gadget (for social purposes). After a few weeks, I walk up to her and ask if I can add her. She says yes. We didn't really talk much though. Eventually we interact over the gadgets using wifi (brief messages and drawings). I was beginning to believe in myself again. I still found it odd we never interact in class; its as if we didn't know each other at all. Then I decide to ask her out to the movies. I felt more confident this time unlike the previous year (in which I asked her out and mentioned "only if you want to" simply because I didn't want to force her to and because she is shy). Unfortunately she said no because she was going to go with her sister. She said something else but I didn't hear it well because she speaks softly. I got rejected again. I felt pretty bad and since then, we havne't spoken to each other. We still have each other as friends on the device though. Now fast forward to the present. We are in the same class again. At first I was doing a little okay but then I noticed one of our classmates (whom we are both friends of) talking to her. He became a good friend of hers and I can hear them from across the classroom talking. Made me feel bad because that's exactly what I wanted to do with her but I failed. It gets worse. They began sitting infront of me. I felt so terrible. There is the girl of my dreams in a way I hadn't seen her; very social and all. I see her personality shine and it makes me like her even more. I can't talk to the guy because I'm just in a weird position I guess but he does talk to me. I have to ignore her but when I show up or leave the class, I say goodbye to all "later guys" since they sit with another mutual friend. It just sucks. It seems like I was the only one affected at all. It took a lot from me to ask her out not just once but twice. Its harder sitting in front of them. She's not doing anything on purpose because she isn't like that. She's actually a nice and sweet girl. I still like her; no, I like her more than ever. She literally is the girl of my dreams. I've tried liking other girls (and I did for a while but I simply can't move on). I don't know what to do. I kinda want to talk to her but why? I'll get nothing out of it. Even if I were to somehow become her friend, then what? I'll only like her more and more. I just don't understand anything. I have never tried so hard to pursue a girl and I ended up failing so horribly. I also found it a little odd that I changed my username on my profile device to something else and that same week she did the exact same. Neither of us had changed our usernames at all ever since we added each other. But its probably just me overthinking it. In case you are wondering, yes, I'm a little shy especially with girls I like. I often talk well to girls once the ice has been broken (and it's usually girls who start talking to me first; outside of school I talk to just everyone at work first). I guess I wanted to get this off my chest since I really don't have anyone to talk to about this stuff. But man it seriously sucks. I have bad luck with women then I meet the girl I think is simply perfect and I fail so badly. Girls like her (who are simlilar to me) are extremely hard to find.
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