McDonald Posted February 25, 2013 Posted February 25, 2013 Hey everyone. So I have been trying to figure out my emotions as of late. so I decided it would be best to come up with a timeline since the break up and match emotions to events etc. Late December: Pre break up: Bought plane tickets to see me over winter break, was excited. Told her friends Three days later texted me saying that she was going to break my heart... She's been talking to someone else. Told me she Didn't know what to do. Felt sick etc. My heart feels like it just died. Most painful experience of my life. I really tell her everything. How much she means to me. The future I have planned in my head. The next day she tells me she loves me and doesn't want to throw away what we have made the past 8 months. She tells the OM that. He replies with "I don't want to get in the middle of you and your bf relationship bayou already have enough on your plate". I know this becaue she sends me a picture of it saying.. "see he's a nice guy"...... -_- However she begins to reply to my texts slower and slower. About 3 days later she tells me that we have to talk. That she can't come visit me and then break up with me after. Instead of seeing me on new years, she goes and sees this other guy. This is literally 2 days after the break up... At this point I feel defeated. However I asked if we could remain friends because my young knowledge in love didn't know better. Anyway--- Post break up: We had back to school. She begins to ask me if I want to have lunch, go to target with her etc. Felt weird because we just broke up but we were doing things that we did while we were dating? I ask her why we are doing this and she says that she hopes it will pass and that we can get back together. Def beng strung along here. I tell her we shouldn't keep talking you till you are sure of what you want. She says thr she wants to keep talking to me.. So I do -_---- Okay this is already getting longer than I hoped so I'll cut to the chase:::: I see her holding hands with this other guy a few days later.... Then she texts me hey. But I don't reply. Then I ask her seomething later and she says that she can't keep doing this.. And that I have to stop. So I come onto LS and get advice etc. so I go NC That was all within the first few days of january. I decide to start going out again because when I was with her we stayed in all the time. She never liked going out ( but suddenly she does with the other guy). I end up seeing her out with him on a weekend night and that next Monday she texts me saying "I just saw jack lol" Jacks a mutual friend f ours who she met once... Weird she old send that. Anyway it made me upset that she would send that after telling me we sent speak. Like we were just suddenly friends? I never replied. During all this I was very down. Things looking up though. Week after her text I wished her A happy birthday. She said thanks. That was it. Not to concerning though. So it's been about 2 months of NC. my self esteem is starting to get backup. But it's working against me. I'm going out now, working out every day. Doing everything I was doing before the relationship. Now my mind is like... Okay let's get her back now. Why is this? I was moving on fine when she told me we could never speak. I was developing myself. I feel like her message put me on a hualt in terms of getting over her. SHE HAS ANOTHER GUY. What am I doing? I should be able to say SEE YA Maybe it's just still a need and im using my ego as a scapegoat. Nevertheless, she's poping up in my mind more so that the past few weeks. Like how it was at the beginning of the BU.
Author McDonald Posted February 26, 2013 Author Posted February 26, 2013 Okay so once I finsihed typing the above post I take the elvator from ours schools library to the first floor and who is waiting right outside it!!! Her I just said hey and she said hey then I left I feel like 100000 lbs just have crushed. me This is insane. I havent felt like this since the break up so much for moving on.
cavalier99 Posted February 26, 2013 Posted February 26, 2013 Sorry man. That sucks. Your doing the right thing with NC. Just keep on going. It gets better. Sucks that you need to run into her but it is what it is. Just don't EVER converse with her, text her, nothing. This will do the trick but you will definitly experience the emotional roller coaster. Your not back at the begining althought it might feel that way. It is still early for you. In a few months you won't be feeling this searing pain. Cav
Author McDonald Posted February 26, 2013 Author Posted February 26, 2013 Thanks Cav for the response. The pain comes and goes but its nowhere like it once was a few weeks ago.. Im just getting upset that Im still attached to someone who is out of my life for good and when i have the chance to tell her how I feel, I dont say anything Or maybe its better that I dont.
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