Thunderchild Posted February 25, 2013 Posted February 25, 2013 (edited) Another early rise. Still, broken sleep better than no sleep at all! That's progress for you. I suspect that my rational head is now starting to gain the upper hand. On reflection, I'm coming to the conclusion that I'm probably better off away from my ex. I don't trust her, I don't believe her and I certainly have no respect for her any more. As for 'friendship' - no thanks. I got away from the breakup with my dignity and self-esteem intact, I'd like to keep it that way. The trust and respect are gone - it is over. So, the best thing would probably just be to make NC a permenant feature with this individual and just get on with my life. Unfortunately, I have a lot of quite expensive property at her house which I will need to retrieve. I'll most likely give it the full 60 days for NC and then try to arrange a time to lift my stuff. I might not even go over myself - just send some friends and a van. Give her the message that I'm gone for good. Although, I did love her and I was very fond of her dogs and saying 'goodbye' to them would probably hurt me more than the thought of ever seeing her again. My mobile phone is downstairs, switched off and lying on the TV table - another sign of progress. We used to text each other madly, and I had gotten into the habit of going everywhere with my mobile. I'll probably still find myself 'just checking' to see if she has texted out of sheer habit, but that should eventually fade. Edited February 25, 2013 by Thunderchild
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