Derpderpleton Posted February 22, 2013 Posted February 22, 2013 She's going to be doing an activity that we had planned to do together, with her friends. She'll probably be going out to party after that. It's day 12 of NC and have no intention of breaking it just to wish her a happy birthday. She still considers us to be 'friends', so it makes me wonder if she'll even care that I ignored her birthday. I doubt she will, though. I'll be avoiding all social media like the plague tomorrow. Deleted Facebook and Twitter off of my phone. Can't wait until tomorrow is over. 3
Author Derpderpleton Posted February 22, 2013 Author Posted February 22, 2013 Not really expecting any replies to this one. I just needed to vent really quick.
Author Derpderpleton Posted February 23, 2013 Author Posted February 23, 2013 It's 2:30 am and I'm wide awake. She texted me for the first time in almost 2 weeks earlier, just to tell me that she's going to bring some things of mine that she still has to work next time we work together. I texted her back, just saying "okay". I'm still not going to wish her happy birthday or anything. There's no worse feeling than not being over a girl, all the while, she's COMPLETELY over you and out there talking to other guys. She toyed with my emotions, then tossed me aside once she was ready to move on and try to find another guy (even though she told me she don't want a relationship right now), so she lied to me too. I told her that I don't hate her or anything and she thinks that we're friends. As I lay here and reflect on what she's done to me, I'm starting to realize that I hate her. She's changed me into a different person than I was before all of this happened, and everyone has noticed this. I've never been a bitter or hateful person in my entire life, I don't want to be, but she has changed that. Late night wide awake rant over...blah.
Author Derpderpleton Posted February 23, 2013 Author Posted February 23, 2013 (edited) I've learned the hard way that giving some women your absolute best and being nothing but nice will never be enough. It works in the beginning, but you're doomed if you play the 'nice guy' for too long. I let her walk all over me toward the end of the relationship, I'm f*cking disgusted with her, and myself for letting it happen. I'm done being nice. Edited February 23, 2013 by Derpderpleton
RogerWallace111 Posted February 23, 2013 Posted February 23, 2013 You're gonna be alright homie. I promise. No need to stop being a "nice" guy, but sure, learn and be a bit more true and steadfast to yourself next time... 1
beyond Posted February 23, 2013 Posted February 23, 2013 Hey, try not to get bitter and think you have to treat women badly. You can be a good decent guy with strong boundaries - don't let anyone walk all over you again. I hope you have things planned for today to keep you busy. 1
Author Derpderpleton Posted February 23, 2013 Author Posted February 23, 2013 I was just really tired lastnight when I posted that. I'm really not bitter towards her and I'm not going to change who I am because of this. However, I am going to be more guarded and have more of a backbone when it comes to dealing with women. This break up was a real learning experience for me. It's taught me to not put my entire heart into something without being extremely cautious first. We didn't end the relationship on 'bad' terms. That's why I'm having a hard time dealing with this. We were still pretty close to each other right after the break up, even hung out a few times, then, suddenly, she began to act angry at me, and like I was a complete stranger to her and has continued to do so. That's the part that sucks the most. I honestly don't hate her and I still care for her a lot. I guess, sometimes, when you truly care about someone, you sort of just have to fall back and let them continue to do whatever makes them happy, without interfering. I hope she doesn't think I hate her or anything because I'm ignoring her birthday. I'm just doing it for mine and her benefit. I'm sure she won't even notice. Man, this has already been a LONG ass day..
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