It does get better.

[TrueLoveSeeker]

Hey guys, so I have only posted here a few times and let me tell you, they were depressing posts. I had just lost the girl I have waited my entire life to find and I couldn't think of any reason to be happy or anything. I was depressed as can be and I am sure that I felt just as bad and hopeless as most of you people on LS. The main reason I felt so horrible because the breakup was my fault. I did not treat her as well as i could have and I obviously regret it everyday.

 

However, I knew I could not continue living my life in regret so I decided that I needed to forgive myself. I had already asked her to forgive me and I believe she did but that doesnt matter to me anymore. All i know is that I allowed myself to forgive my actions and to never make the same mistake again. Although I dont have her in my life anymore, I realize that I am young and have a very bright future. I am sure most of you have something great going for them yet you dont want to admit it.

 

It has been a few weeks since I had any form of communication with her and I feel so much better. Ignorance is bliss. I know that if I checked her fb that I would find something I dont want to see so it is better to just ignore it. I refuse to hurt anymore. You should do the same thing. I am working out and I have lost 20 lbs in 2 months. It is amazing what a little exercise and eating healthy can do for you. I feel so much better and all I can say is that I am excited to live my life again and am even more excited to share my new found happiness with someone.

 

I still have my highs and lows but as time goes on, the bad days are far more infrequent. I would be lying if I told you that I don't want her to contact me again but my life doesnt depend on it and I know that I can get through this. LS has been great for me and it is kind of like a free therapy session for me. Thanks everyone who contributes to this sight. It has really helped me get through the hardest part of my life so far.