He was unsure if he still loved me

[AlyssaLove]

My ex boyfriend and I dated for 8 months and it was pure, beautiful bliss. Always laughing, holding each other when it was cold, being passionately intimate and ultimately, giving ourselves to one another. Everyday was like that until recently. A few weeks ago he was distant with me, when I would try to cuddle, he would push me away, when I wanted to fool around, he didn't, when I would hug him, he wouldn't hug me as strong as usual. At first I thought he was acting this way because of a family emergency and that he was home alone for two weeks straight but then I thought to myself maybe that wasn't it. One day at school I asked him if anything was wrong and he said no.

 

Later that night I texted him "hi" and he texted back the same. Then I wanted to stop beating around the bush and ask him again what was wrong. He told me the real reason why he was acting that way was because...He didn't know if he sill loved me. When he uttered those words, I couldn't believe my ears. It was as if a dagger came piercing through my heart and stayed there.

 

He also told me that my loudness was annoying and embarrassing at times. I shed so many tears because it was coming from somebody who I loved, told my darkest secrets to, showed my weaknesses and trusted. All those months he told me he loved me, that he wasn't the same if I wasn't with him, how he would never leave me and how I was his quote, "El amor de mi vida" which means "The love of my life" in Spanish. I didn't know what went wrong, We gave each other everything and I guess that wasn't good enough for one of us. It scared me also because the thought of him with another girl is barf inducing and nauseating.We went a whole weekend of not speaking to each other then finally the day before valentine's day, he called it quits saying there's a lot going on in his life and it's best if we stop dating. He also said he would like to stay good friends and that I could talk to him whenever I wanted to but I'm completely lost. I want him back and I just don't know what to do. Please help, what are the chances of him and I getting back together? Is there any hope for us?