BehindBlueEyes Posted February 19, 2013 Posted February 19, 2013 So many times I can become very rude, hateful and belligerence surrounds my inner soul. Any small or big thing I find irritating can set me off from being totally calm and nice to completely someone people start to hate. I see time after time people IRL and on LS, have problems far worse and far more irritations yet can write and speak with people in a controlled and nice fashion, For example, Ross. That kid is nice despite all the BS he puts up with from people. Why in the hell do I become a total prick to people when I am irritated? When something great happens I am all nice and likable....look at me funny I become the devil and I don't hesitate to let people know my irritation. I'm figuring on if I can't fix my core problem I will try and fix my control over my anger and lashing out to people....in other words become as calm under pressure as Ross. It seems I could at least do that and that may help me out the rest of the way in life or at least make things more tolerable. Serious post and if you have an idea or ideas why people like me do what I do I'm all ears, good or bad. Any tips are heard too. Or....if nothing then I get that too. At least no one can beat up for being completely honest in that I have some bad problems. thanks. P.S. Others could benefit from any info here too...I'm no tthe only one with these issues.
todreaminblue Posted February 19, 2013 Posted February 19, 2013 So many times I can become very rude, hateful and belligerence surrounds my inner soul. Any small or big thing I find irritating can set me off from being totally calm and nice to completely someone people start to hate. I see time after time people IRL and on LS, have problems far worse and far more irritations yet can write and speak with people in a controlled and nice fashion, For example, Ross. That kid is nice despite all the BS he puts up with from people. Why in the hell do I become a total prick to people when I am irritated? When something great happens I am all nice and likable....look at me funny I become the devil and I don't hesitate to let people know my irritation. I'm figuring on if I can't fix my core problem I will try and fix my control over my anger and lashing out to people....in other words become as calm under pressure as Ross. It seems I could at least do that and that may help me out the rest of the way in life or at least make things more tolerable. Serious post and if you have an idea or ideas why people like me do what I do I'm all ears, good or bad. Any tips are heard too. Or....if nothing then I get that too. At least no one can beat up for being completely honest in that I have some bad problems. thanks. P.S. Others could benefit from any info here too...I'm no tthe only one with these issues. My friend is liek this he is addicted to pot..doesnt freaking help him in fact i would say this is his problem.....he has to use pot for happiness....as soon as he knows he is gettign some he changes...into a happy go lucky bouncy person.....that sort of pisses me off.....so when he is all happy i am completely nto over the he was just a sod to em an hour ago...do you smoke pot?......my friend is male and he is bitter, but he has a big heart and is also lonely..pot he feels makes him happy because in his heart that what he wants to b e....he is going to the wrong source....he is a work in progress....deb
Anela Posted February 19, 2013 Posted February 19, 2013 That's why I'm listening to the ocean right now. Someone at home is out to ruin my day, every day, and I no longer have that much patience (I used to have A LOT of it).
Author BehindBlueEyes Posted February 19, 2013 Author Posted February 19, 2013 My friend is liek this he is addicted to pot..doesnt freaking help him in fact i would say this is his problem.....he has to use pot for happiness....as soon as he knows he is gettign some he changes...into a happy go lucky bouncy person.....that sort of pisses me off.....so when he is all happy i am completely nto over the he was just a sod to em an hour ago...do you smoke pot?......my friend is male and he is bitter, but he has a big heart and is also lonely..pot he feels makes him happy because in his heart that what he wants to b e....he is going to the wrong source....he is a work in progress....deb Yes I smoke the green, not 24'7 just as a little perk. I don't think that is my problem though. I can smoke and not smoke for weeks and still get moody. That's why I'm listening to the ocean right now. Someone at home is out to ruin my day, every day, and I no longer have that much patience (I used to have A LOT of it). I have this light show projector I leave on all night..it gives off calming, cool lights all over the walls. It kinda calms the soul after a ****ty day. 1
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