Chloe1980 Posted February 18, 2013 Posted February 18, 2013 I texted him to know if he already has his stds results (Im day 10 breakup, was day 4 no contact). He replied no, he's calling tomorrow. Asked him if he was mad at me, said "Im not mad at anyone". I said: Im having a hard time forgetting you...blah blah blah. The he stopped texting, so I called him. He replied after 5 rings. We talked for 30 minutes. I begged him to say to me if he doesnt want to see me anymore. He said "Its difficult to say no to you" He couldnt tell me to stop looking for him, and he said he wanted me there with him right now. So we arranged to see each other Wednesday morning. I think he's gonna cancel me. I know him, he'll text me tomorrow to cancel, and I'll be hearthbreaken again. this is non sense.
131313 Posted February 18, 2013 Posted February 18, 2013 So what, you contacted him and got a little emotional. Tell yourself it's the last time. Imagine yourself walking slowly away from an explosion- yes, you looked back, you questioned what was happening, you are scared and hurt and did something you know you shouldn't have. Just keep on walking, walk away farther and farther away from the crime scene until you can't see it anymore. I'm sorry about the anxiety of waiting for test results, that has got to be excruciating- just keep walking, there's nothing left back there and it's time to find your own way. 1
Author Chloe1980 Posted February 18, 2013 Author Posted February 18, 2013 Yes, it's like a toxic explosion indeed. Need to walk away, or I'll get contaminated. I must have seemed so needy, so desperate, that the guy must have felt sorry for me. I imagine him thinking "OK, lets give this poor soul another chance of being with me" Disgusted at myself. I'm struggling on whether cancel him before he cancels me... What to do? What to do?
KS11 Posted February 18, 2013 Posted February 18, 2013 What do you hope to get from meeting him? I know just how easy it is to keep saying, just one last time etc, maybe this will be the time he'll see how good we can be etc..but it will never be enough. As hard as it is, you have to be strong. Maybe cancelling the meet will give you some power to move on. Show him you're not this 'needy and desperate' person. Its horrible i know, but with all due respect the guy, to me, doesn't warrant anymore of your time!
KatZee Posted February 18, 2013 Posted February 18, 2013 Just send him a message that says, "I'm sorry. I had a moment of weakness earlier. I don't regret contacting you, but I must cancel our meeting on Wednesday. I need to start moving on and this is the only way how." 1
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