lullaby Posted February 17, 2013 Posted February 17, 2013 As we all know and experienced, each day brings something new, and with it, a new feeling towards our current situation with the ex, the soon-to-be ex, or whatever you may call it. I'd like to know how you're feeling today, in short: do you think you're healing, you're starting to heal? You think you still have a long way to go? Are you thinking of second chances? And the list goes on... Personally, I'm healing from my past relationship, it lasted only 5 months, and I'm happy I put an end to it because it was so toxic I couldn't even fall in love with him. Funny enough, I'm still coping with my previous relationship, I still think about that man, whom I think was and is the man of my life. I'm healing alright, and I'm thankful because I could know what real love is, at least from my part, right? So, come on, and share your thoughts!
TrueLoveSeeker Posted February 17, 2013 Posted February 17, 2013 Hello. About a month and a half ago, the girl of my dreams broke up with me. I wrote numerous pages of love letters to let her know how I truly felt about her because I never really was able to express my feelings for her during the relationship. She thought about trying it again but ended up saying she doesnt think she can do it anymore. About a week ago, I asked her if she still loved me and still had feelings for me. She told me she doesnt have any more feelings for me, she used to love me very much but doesnt feel the same way anymore and to have a good life. I sincerely apologized for not being true to myself and her while during the relationship. I havent talked to her since then nor checked up on any social media. I am struggling. I always have to talk myself out of giving her one last letter or message because I know it wont help. I would do anything to be able to hold her in my arms again and know that she wants me as much as I want her. Literally all of our friends are mutual friends whom I still hang out with and she still hangs out with but we dont ever see eachother. This hurts me a little when I hang out with these friends but they are the only ones I have and they are good people. Last night, I had a lot of fun with my friends and got drunk. I wrote a text message that said stuff like sorry for being a jerk and I love you more than anything. I didnt send it because I knew it was a bad idea. I cant get her out of my mind. Everything I do feels like it is just going through the motions to let time do its magic. I fear that I wont get over her. I want her back more than anything and the truth is, I do believe that if I just be myself with her, she would want me back forever as well. Right now, she doesnt want to talk to me and I fear that she will never get to see the real me. This kinda stuff sucks but I know I will become a stronger man for it. 1
Love Bytes Posted February 17, 2013 Posted February 17, 2013 General indifference. Not too sad, not too happy. 1
todreaminblue Posted February 17, 2013 Posted February 17, 2013 As we all know and experienced, each day brings something new, and with it, a new feeling towards our current situation with the ex, the soon-to-be ex, or whatever you may call it. I'd like to know how you're feeling today, in short: do you think you're healing, you're starting to heal? You think you still have a long way to go? Are you thinking of second chances? And the list goes on... Personally, I'm healing from my past relationship, it lasted only 5 months, and I'm happy I put an end to it because it was so toxic I couldn't even fall in love with him. Funny enough, I'm still coping with my previous relationship, I still think about that man, whom I think was and is the man of my life. I'm healing alright, and I'm thankful because I could know what real love is, at least from my part, right? So, come on, and share your thoughts! i feel really hopeful today ....scared of that...i feel inspired and cherished...warm and fuzzy like i have this pure feather doona wrapped tight around me....enlightened.......im flying today....which normally means soemthing is goign to make me crash....but i am prepared for that...see....flying......now wheres that wall and when is it coming...the wall of paranoia and worry that i am delusional...deb 1
Nasher Posted February 18, 2013 Posted February 18, 2013 (edited) I woke up feeling a bit sad this morning myself. It seems to be a common re-occurrence after a fun packed weekend, the first thing I do is wake up and think how much I miss her, how I miss my friend. It's so frustrating but I understand I'm battling with letting go. The scary part is thinking of enjoying myself without her because then I know I have moved forward. I know it sounds sounds silly because how do you recover and I am definitely not enjoying the pain. But you can't help it when you loved someone I guess, the feelings are lingering. I also suppose I think, wow, 2-3-4-5 weeks NC and wonder where the time has flew and it makes me sad that the love and relationship I had vanished less than 2 months before and she doesn't care any more. Now at work and feeling a bit better after a few work chats etc. Guess I just have to keep busy and each week the feeling will get less painful, and most importantly try and stay optimistic about the future. Edited February 18, 2013 by Nasher 2
Author lullaby Posted February 19, 2013 Author Posted February 19, 2013 i feel really hopeful today ....scared of that...i feel inspired and cherished...warm and fuzzy like i have this pure feather doona wrapped tight around me....enlightened.......im flying today....which normally means soemthing is goign to make me crash....but i am prepared for that...see....flying......now wheres that wall and when is it coming...the wall of paranoia and worry that i am delusional...deb I just loved the way you expressed your feelings. It's full of ups and downs, right? No matter how long has it been, one week or one year, it's always good to read your heart and grasp what you're feeling, it's another way of coping and working things out. 1
todreaminblue Posted February 19, 2013 Posted February 19, 2013 I just loved the way you expressed your feelings. It's full of ups and downs, right? No matter how long has it been, one week or one year, it's always good to read your heart and grasp what you're feeling, it's another way of coping and working things out. it is a way to cope......but soemtimes i over cope i analyse everything i am feeling ...thats when i need to get out and not go ocd on myself..... right at the moment i feel paranoid triggered from reading something on loveshack,its justified to me, so i am out of here slinky style....to listen to some music....hugs to ya.....deb 1
Anela Posted February 19, 2013 Posted February 19, 2013 it is a way to cope......but soemtimes i over cope i analyse everything i am feeling ...thats when i need to get out and not go ocd on myself..... right at the moment i feel paranoid triggered from reading something on loveshack,its justified to me, so i am out of here slinky style....to listen to some music....hugs to ya.....deb i hope you feel better soon, deb. ] I miss the old "me". I miss the way things used to be. Nothing is right anymore. 1
iouaname Posted February 19, 2013 Posted February 19, 2013 I'm feeling okay tonight, but I'm feeling anxious for tomorrow. I feel a lot of stress - stress over school, stress over money, stress over my ex and that relationship. I also feel a small sense of empowerment, knowing that I'm taking things into my own hands for once, though. 2
coffeeloverx Posted February 19, 2013 Posted February 19, 2013 I feel frustrated. I'm frustrated with the fact that lately I've been missing him a lot more. I'm frustrated with life and how badly I want to move on but can't seem to. I'm just frustrated. 1
betterdeal Posted February 19, 2013 Posted February 19, 2013 I'm feeling via a network of sensory neurons connected to my central nervous system. And that''s not only today, but everyday. 3
Exitleft Posted February 19, 2013 Posted February 19, 2013 Physically ill, crying fits. I broke NC and she basically asked me to leave her alone again. I spoke to her sister. I go from acceptance to a deep dull pain inside me. I am a bit overwhelmed about getting over this. She seems perfectly fine and happy, naming her future children. A woman who told me 3 weeks ago she wanted to marry me. 1
Lillygoose Posted February 24, 2013 Posted February 24, 2013 Today has been a roller-coaster kind of day, Was perfectly fine the morning which is unlike me. i find it is when I miss him the most. Then in the afternoon someone mentioned his facebook and I remember seeing them in a relationship few weeks back and it killed me. one of the reasons i de-activated fb!! HELPS SO MUCH!! but I switched off the emotions and got on with what I was doing PROUD MOMENT! didnt think about it until an hour ago, It hit hard how much I miss him. Thou im taking it day by day. and being an independent women x
Kaza Posted February 24, 2013 Posted February 24, 2013 I think I have it together but it's so hard at work, when my feet can't help but walk past his office. I will keep on trying to heal and I won't give up, I know its only a matter of time.
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