QoS Posted February 13, 2013 Posted February 13, 2013 (edited) I wrote a massively long post about us earlier, but the page timed out and I lost it all I'll be a bit briefer:- Same sex relationshipI'm 37, a provider, giver, carer and I'm talkative/emotionalShe's 41 quiet, reserved, calculated, likes things on her termsBeen together 15 yearsSplit up for a year after she had an affairI had a brief rebound relationship in the time we were apartWe reconciled, without much talking from her but what she did say was telling and her unheard of emotionalityRecently she has stayed we me a lot and I've caught myself over providing and her riding on thatSaturday I got upset because she's constantly spending her weekends with her family, I get none of this premium time. I was tired and grumpy, so we argue briefly by text.She came home and was nipping at me and not allowing me to speak, telling me what I am. So I snapped and in frustration said "f-Off", to which she stormed outI called twice that night, say six hours later and calmly wanted to talk it through, she was having none of it. Text wars then ensued. I left it figuring we were just het-upSunday she text me "miss you", which I replied hours later "oh?!"Monday she text me "x" which I questioned and then text-wars were out again.She never lets me talk, tell her how I feel, she's never wrong. So I stupidly and emotionally took my chance and blurted by text, nothing heavy, just I want some of her time. To which she said she was moving on, as cold as thatNC since 5pm MondayToday I cracked, I wasn't sure if her initial texts were her usual stupid arse way of apologising and that I was just still ragiging at her running away like a babyI text her "I understand you want to move on. I repsect that. Just wanted to say I don't enjoy arguements, we hurt each other"25 minutes later she replies "I'm not the one wanting to move on.... I'm not looking for someone.... nor interested in anyone else..."So what the hell do I do now? I'm no weak sissy girl, I kicked her to the curb for cheating and she had to work to get my attention again, but I hate walkers, games and punishment techniques. I wasn't going to play NC for control, I wanted to calm down, unsure as to whether she was bread-crumbing with the early texts or whether she's geuninely rubbish. Help! I don't want control games, punishments, but she did say she wanted to move on, I fear to panic me into a "I need you, don't go" response ... which she didn't get. For clarity, we lived together for 13 years monogomously, usually she likes heavy contact like 30 texts+ a day and calls, we're usually always orbiting each other. Edited February 13, 2013 by QoS added
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