131313 Posted February 13, 2013 Posted February 13, 2013 I have no drive to do anything today. I'm going into work late. In fact I am still in my pajamas. This isn't good. I'm going to go take a shower and get moving. I don't feel like that is even possible at the moment so I thought if I wrote it down I might commit to actually doing it. I can't blow off work I've been half assing it all week already. I wish this pain would just stop. It's actually like physically painful. I HAVE to be somewhere in 2 hours so I'm going to get there. And I made an appointment with a counselor for this afternoon. Maybe that will help.
NoLeafClover Posted February 13, 2013 Posted February 13, 2013 I have no drive to do anything today .... try masturbation sorry i had to
mcdo Posted February 13, 2013 Posted February 13, 2013 I did this exact same thing about a month ago! Woke up and just wouldn't get out of bed. Lay there awake, just numb. Thought about calling my boss and didn't even bother do that. Eventually got up and went into work around 3 hours late. I sat my boss down and explained to him what has been going on. He's a cool guy so he was totally fine with it. Said I could take a holiday if I wanted, which I thought would be a bad idea - best to keep working and keep active. And I would have wasted valuable vacation days by sitting around being miserable. Previously I always maintained that personal and professional lives should be kept separate (so much so that my boss didn't even know that I had a girlfriend). But once the personal starts to affect the professional I think it's right to give a heads up. The following week I was late one day again - about 2 hours late. The week after I was late another day - about 30 mins late. This week I have been late once - 1 minute late. It's positive sign that I'm healing. And you will too.
Author 131313 Posted February 13, 2013 Author Posted February 13, 2013 Thanks for making me laugh NoLeafClover.
Author 131313 Posted February 13, 2013 Author Posted February 13, 2013 And thanks for relating to me McDo. Hearing your story helps a lot. I know it will get better. I'm arrived at my appointment 10 min early. I can do this. The good thing about my job (outside sales) is that I don't have an office to report to or a boss or coworkers to notice my heinous emotional state. The bad thing is since I make my own schedule it allows me to slack off and it goes unnoticed, which is detrimental to me because I start wallowing and mostly I'm alone all day. Oh well. Im going to schedule a ton of appointments for Thursday and Friday just back to back madness so I can't give myself the option to lay around miserable like I did this morning. Today is the last day I'm giving myself permission to slack. It's been 5 days since I left my boyfriend so I've had a few days to be miserable already, enough is enough.
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