Author newsbug Posted February 13, 2013 Author Posted February 13, 2013 I know what everyone is saying is true. This is only day three of being dumped, so everything is still too raw for me to be able to cut everything off 100%. I think it's feeling like having someone die and knowing you have to get rid of their stuff and keep going on and keep your head up, but it just takes a bit. I have been doing pretty good today at just trying to seem normal. I went to the gym and the grocery store. I have made an appointment to see a therapist with hopes of helping work through all this junk. I'm back home now for the evening and I just had a nice out loud rant with my brother and I'm feeling a bit better. Positive, not good. I know things will be okay and I will eventually feel better....I just keep having the "Why" running over and over in my mind. Eventually that will quiet down though...I just hope it happens sooner than later. The worse thing I did today in regards to the NC thing is I sent his mom a message apologizing for defriending her on fb...I felt really bad for that because we were close and I told her it didn't have anything to do with her but just that he dumped me and defriended me and my friends and family so I did the same. She told me that he wouldn't tell them what happened either but she had never known her son to be as happy as he had been this past year with me and she thinks he just got cold feet and I should just give him some space and if it was meant to be then it will be. I thanked her for the kind words and that was about it. It's kind of just one day...or one moment at a time right now.
Author newsbug Posted February 13, 2013 Author Posted February 13, 2013 I also just started watching Diary of a Mad Black Woman...that will help vent a bit. 1
Author newsbug Posted February 19, 2013 Author Posted February 19, 2013 Just a update, even if it's just for me. My brother has paid off all the money the ex owes me. Now I have one less thing to worry about. And now it's totally up to the brother to get his money back. I have nothing to do with it. So as sad and crazy as I still am, I can at least breath a little sigh of relief. Today has been a very hard day for me to not call or text him. I'm thankful that I deleted all of his information because I can't contact him now, even though I think I would have if I could. I actually picked my phone up on the way home from work just to look at his texts to me and remembered I had deleted them all. Good for me. Baby steps. 3
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