brokenhearted91 Posted February 11, 2013 Posted February 11, 2013 ... But it seems to hurt more. He broke up with me 3 weeks ago, because he was unhappy because of the way I've been acting. Up till then he was really living, caring, bought me a present for our anniversary and said he wanted me by his side. I got back to the flat we share last night and he managed to tell me that he has already kissed a girl when he went out and he's texting a girl he met when he was out. It broke my heart all over again. I wanted to cry but didnt wanna show weakness in front of him. I'd never do that to him if it was the other way round. He knows I love him and didnt want to break up. Why is he finding it so easy to be cold and heartless after 3 years??
Author brokenhearted91 Posted February 15, 2013 Author Posted February 15, 2013 He never started to pull away, he would constantly ring/text me, initiate that he loved me first with random texts, treated me so special at Christmas, always wanted to come to my house and so stuff with me an my family around Christmas when we were back home for a bit, bought me an anniversary present off his own back when we agreed we weren't going to, told me he wanted me by his side in the future and he loved me more than I could imagine, and that he missed me loads (he went back to Uni before me). So I never felt like he was pulling away at all, at times I felt like he was pulling me closer. There was times he'd say he was unhappy because of the way I spoke to him (and I totally hold my hands up for that, like I've said I've been selfish and focuses on my myself for the past few months and taken things out on him) but likewise, he's done things that upset me and I've told him about those. I know relationships aren't all hearts and flowers and there are times when there are rough times and you argue but the good times make up for them. I feel like he thinks a good relationship is all laughing good times fun and no form of disagreements etc. What I don't understand is why he wants a reaction by talking about other girls? What would he want to achieve? I went out with a friend last week and he said "so did you get off with anyone?" Me still feeling heartbroken and thinking after just 3 weeks how the hell could I said "no why did you?" And he said "haha yeah, it felt weird". It was like someone kicked me in the stomach. I was devastated. And then he said "you don't think it's too soon do you?" WTF - yes!! He spent all night asking me who I was texting and so he kept getting texts so I said in a jokey way "so who are you texting then" at first he said its none of my business but then he said "nah it's just... (One of his male friends)" I knew straight away he was lying and he said "no it's just a girl, but don't worry it's just a friend" and he said he'd met her on a night out. It took my mum two weeks to persuade me To Go back and give it a try and after a few hours I wanted to cry but couldn't because he was there. Part of me is hoping that he will change his mind if I'm still there. I told him I'd change and to give me one chance to prove it but he said no. If I can change for the better for MYSELF, then part of me hopes he notices that change and I'm the person he fell in love with and I was serious about changing this time. I became too reliant on him, so last week I reeked to do stuff on my own and he was like "wow your doing more than you did when we were together" and "you've grown up in 2 weeks". The situation is hard because I have no friends up there, literally zero so staying with anyone else isn't an option. He talks to me like he did when we were together and keeps asking nowhere I'm going and what I'm doing and stuff. My mum had a real go at him the other day, because she's hurt too because she cared for him and treated him like a son and she asked him to be decent over the breakup and he hasn't been. He actually cried when she said some things to him, and I said some things to him about how I felt and he cried then too. Am I holding onto false hopes here or do we ever stand a chance in the future??
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