We live together

[lgold92]

Hi, this if my first post. I'll try and keep this as short as I can.

 

I started university and during the first year we were seeing each other on and off but were really good friends and we decided to live with each other along with four other people. And in the summer before our second year of uni he became my boyfriend. However during our second year we fell out with another couple during the house and things got really bad I wouldn't ever leave my room unless he came with me, he had to cook all the food etc. and this put a big strain on our relationship. We moved in together again for our final year with three other close friends and all was fine however we did bicker a lot. This boy is literally my life, we spend alot of time together, eat together, sleep together however we also have other friends to go out with so were not too clingy. He's my best friend and the person I tell everything too and he's helped me so much with all the stuff that happened in second year and now he's gone. We had been bickering on and off and then the other day we were talking on fb and he had been invited on a night out with all our friends from first year (and I hadn't (he had recently bumped into the people we fell out with and they cleared they air, but I wasn't there ) ). and he said he wasnt going but I had a bit of a go at him for even making up with them because they literally made our life hell, for example disconnecting my internet a week before my exams. He just lost it, said we were over and not talk to him and he blocked me on fb. We've broke up a few times before but literally for a couple of hours, so after he got back from a club at 3am I went to see him to say sorry and he wouldn't listen. I've gone back home now for a few days to get away from the house but I dont know what to do, there's no chance of us getting back together, as he told me he doesnt love me anymore and hasn't for a while but its so hard because I have such strong feelings for him. I feel so depressed, I've lost my best friend and my boyfriend all at once. And the other thing which is really upsetting me is that I feel like a failure, I had such a large group of friends in first year and then in second year because me and my bf fell out with the other couple we lived with, and stopped going on nights out as a result so it wouldn't be awkward for everyone else, everyone else sorted of forgot about me and my bf. I was determined to make up for second year this year and its all gone now, I will be graduating from uni with a degree, but with a loss of all my friends and my best friend and bf. I cant stop shaking when i think about how ive got to go back to my uni house in two days and live with him again and its valentines day next week which is going to be really hard

[jovan]

so what? You will meet plenty of other people, and reconnect with some, your life is just starting its like that. Sometimes we lose the one's we love, its only natural. Thing is, each time you lose something you hold dear, you learn to accept and forgive, and it makes you wiser and stronger person. In time you will remember this experiance with smile on your face