Boy Band Posted February 7, 2013 Posted February 7, 2013 I don't know why but today's been harder. NC is definitely the right thing to do, but it reinforces the idea that they're definitely not coming back. I also feel like I've been 'denied' the chance to say what I felt, to tell her how she made me feel. I know it doesn't change anything, and there's no way I'm going to tell her, but is writing it all down helpful? Is it just dwelling on things? I'll be on the way to work, at the gym, laying in bed awake at night, and the clearest question will come into my mind that I wish I could've asked her. I know it wouldn't have made any difference, she wouldn't have given me the answers I wanted or needed, but that's how my mind works. And yes, I didn't see the breakup coming... even though logically I know she must've 'checked out of it' some time before she dumped me. And her last effort to 'get the feeling back' is what made it seem like she was still in love with me right up until the end - when she wasn't. Does anyone else write to their ex, in their mind, or on paper (and not send it)? Does it help?
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