Hopeful79 Posted February 7, 2013 Posted February 7, 2013 I leave for Fl in a week and will be there for a month doing more dive training (already an instructor, haven't instructed in 4 yrs though). Hoping to get a job down in the keys and start a new chapter. I have been chatting with a guy I met online, he lives where I will be. We have spoken on the phone and he is really nice. We are going to meet when I get there. I don't expect anything but it's a step to go on a date. Just feeling weak right now. Thinking of my ex...instead of emailing him, texting or calling (since I know he would love to hear from me, if anything to boost his ego - I have ignored his emails and calls) I am writing this post. I don't want him to know how much I miss him. I don't want him to know how much I am struggling. I don't want to feed into his ego anymore and even more importantly- contacting him won't bring him back to me. Anyhow, we both weren't happy for a long time (I wrote all about out breakup in previous threads). As I said, just feeling very vulnerable and weak at the moment and would love some encouragement or at least to know I am not alone in this pain... you are all strangers on this site yet it has brought me comfort...and this seems to be a great support site for heartbreak. I am just filled with the whatifs. I know I loved the idea of our relationship more than the reality, as well as the idea of being a doctors wife. sniff
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