na49 Posted February 6, 2013 Posted February 6, 2013 I've been trying so hard to move on from my BU. It's so difficult at times. I just want to contact her. Ask for her to come back. Check her facebook. Check her twitter. Pretty much I've been having the urge to self destruct on my 3 months NC for a while now. Well I can't walk around campus without thinking I see her. We both go to the same school and the past few days every girl I see, I think is her. I think every girl I see is her, and I feel like crap. The thing is, seeing her would make me feel like crap. So you'd think not seeing her would make me feel better. She's actually disappeared from my life and I hate it. I miss her and I want to talk to her.
iouaname Posted February 6, 2013 Posted February 6, 2013 I'm so sorry It's such an awful feeling and I'm sorry that it has stuck with you for so long. You've been broken up for 3 months? Or just NC for 3 months? I'm sure there's nothing that I can say that will make you feel better but try to just remember that things WILL get better and one day, you will meet someone so amazing that you'll forget what you ever saw in this one girl.
Author na49 Posted February 6, 2013 Author Posted February 6, 2013 Broken up for 4 months. NC for 3. Haven't gone a day without thinking of her. I've had good days and bad days. Tonight's a bad day. I know I should think of it like that. It just seems impossible to me. I have no confidence in myself and I feel like my ex cheated on me because I wasn't good enough, and that it's my fault. I also don't see myself being able to love someone who isn't my ex. She was my first love/relationship.
iouaname Posted February 7, 2013 Posted February 7, 2013 This might sound sort of dumb, but sometimes when I'm missing my ex, I curl up and watch episodes of my favorite television show. It's comforting. If you don't have one, maybe look around and try to find one? The thing I've noticed is that, while I think about my ex all the time, the good/bad feelings come in waves. Some moments I'm fine and don't care that much, and others I'm really hurting. During the moments I'm hurting, I just literally get up and do something else. Remove myself from that physically setting and I tend to feel better. I don't know if that helps at all?
Author na49 Posted February 7, 2013 Author Posted February 7, 2013 I would remove myself from the situation. I just don't feel like doing anything when I get these thoughts. The only thing I want to do is sleep them off and hope I wake up tomorrow feeling better.
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