316 Posted February 6, 2013 Posted February 6, 2013 Mutually broke up with my ex about a month ago. She was my first real relationship. Hell she was my first a lot of things... My first lover, first sexual partner (we gave each other our virginity), first girl that I spent a significant amount of time with outside of school (we practically lived together), etc. We had a very good relationship that lasted a year and 2 months but towards the end the little issues started piling up until we decided split. But we were so close we decided to remain friends, which I was fine with until last night. I heard from a mutual friend that shes been talking to this one guy with whom she swore she had no feelings for while we were still dating. She swore he was "just a friend." They have been talking since a week after our break up... A week?? She got over me in a week?? The news tore at my heart harder than the actual break up did. I called her immediately after and she confirmed what I had heard. I told her we couldn't be friends anymore because I still loved her deeply and she agreed and told me that she still loves me but I need to "move on." (cried all night last night) -------- Well that's exactly what the hell I'm gonna do. Screw you!! I may not have been the perfect boyfriend but I loved you like no other that's for damn sure. Clearly I loved you too much. But now I'm going to make you regret the day you decided to give up on us. I REFUSE to put you on a pedestal and worship the ground you walk on. I'm better than that! You may have been my first love but you will NOT be my last. I'm good looking, I'm tall, I'm smart, I'm caring, I'm obsessed with the idea of doing good and making people happy, I have a good sense of humor, I'm fit, I have a great family and great friends that care about me, but most of all I've realized that I still have a LOT of love I can give. But you know what? I'M GOING TO IMPROVE EVEN MORE. You don't want what I can offer anymore, but I'm sure there are PLENTY of women out there who would gladly take me up in a heartbeat and truly love me for who I am. And when I do finally find that right woman: I'll make sure I treat her TWICE as good as I treated you, I'll be TWICE the lover that I was with you, and I'll be TWICE the man I was when I was with you, because SHE will deserve it. I still love you, but I don't need you. I still miss you, but I'll get over you. You may have gotten me down, but you have NOT knocked me out. I REFUSE TO LET YOU CONTROL MY OWN HAPPINESS ANYMORE. So good luck with your new guy... Maybe I should tell him what color underwear you were wearing a few days ago when you were trying to make me jealous? Or maybe I should tell him how badly you wanted me to send you a pic of my "sweaty body" after I worked out? That'll make him realize how "into him" you really are. BYE BYE --------- Damn that felt good... I needed that. I don't really expect anyone to comment but I'll probably use this thread more often if I need to vent more or whatever. Maybe this thread will help as inspiration for others who are moving on? Idk I'm just glad I got that off my chest. Today is day 1 NC! Here's to a new, improved, and happier me!
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