Author iouaname Posted March 11, 2013 Author Posted March 11, 2013 You're right, it does pass. And I always feel better about myself after it passes knowing that I had that rough point and didn't break and let him see it. Well, he didn't call tonight! I can't say I'm too surprised, I figured after a while he would stop. I'm a little sad, because I think it's done. I think he's given up on contacting me and we're officially going our separate ways. At the same time, I'm a little relieved. 1
TaraMaiden Posted March 11, 2013 Posted March 11, 2013 Good. You'll find the Relief will soon overtake the sadness.
Author iouaname Posted April 6, 2013 Author Posted April 6, 2013 I've been having such a hard time tonight I've been doing pretty decently for the past two months as I kept no contact with him, and even though I've had moments of sadness during the weekends, I've been really struggling today. I don't know why, but all of the anger and the sadness and the pain has really gotten to me tonight. A huge part of me wants to reach out and contact him - even though I know that it is not the right thing to do. I just have so much anger, jealousy, and sadness. I hate him for what he has done, but at the same time, I miss him. Even though I have been slowly overcoming the grief, there's this feeling of emptiness that I can't shake. It's as though I can't figure out how to be whole again...
TaraMaiden Posted April 6, 2013 Posted April 6, 2013 It's nearly new-moon time.... I find a new moon has a downward effect on my moods. The full-moon on he other hand, exhilarates me.... Watch this cycle. It may be having an effect, it might not. But look at when you last posted.....
Author iouaname Posted April 6, 2013 Author Posted April 6, 2013 Interesting! Thanks, Tara. I'll actually keep an eye on that. It would be a huge advantage if I could predict these mood swings I'm not feeling much better this morning, but I'm just trying to keep myself distracted. I know that this might be a common way of thinking after a breakup, but I'm having a really hard time believing that I will be able to be with anyone else. There were many men before, during, and after my ex who showed an interest in me and even some that I had taken the time to get to know, but nobody has ever gotten my attention like my ex. It doesn't mean there's anything amazing about him, I just feel like maybe there's something wrong with me. Maybe I have some figuring out to do before I can be happy with someone...
thefooloftheyear Posted April 6, 2013 Posted April 6, 2013 Interesting! Thanks, Tara. I'll actually keep an eye on that. It would be a huge advantage if I could predict these mood swings I'm not feeling much better this morning, but I'm just trying to keep myself distracted. I know that this might be a common way of thinking after a breakup, but I'm having a really hard time believing that I will be able to be with anyone else. There were many men before, during, and after my ex who showed an interest in me and even some that I had taken the time to get to know, but nobody has ever gotten my attention like my ex. It doesn't mean there's anything amazing about him, I just feel like maybe there's something wrong with me. Maybe I have some figuring out to do before I can be happy with someone... Hang in there.... Maybe there is something to this "moon phase" deal. I was doing well and while I am not coming apart, its been a rough couple of weeks. The weather is(finally) starting to break here and instead of making things better, they are making things worse. You reminisce more, I think.... TFOY
cavalier99 Posted April 6, 2013 Posted April 6, 2013 Ummm My mood fluctuates depending on how oftem i masturbate and how my favorite sports team is doing then i level out in the off season! Rock on! Cav
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