21heartless Posted February 5, 2013 Posted February 5, 2013 She broke up with I made a mistake and I'm willing to live with that.i want her back but I don't ever want to hurt her again if she changes her mind. I love her with everything I have that's why I'm doing NC for her and to better myself. I hope she forgives me. Yesterday seemed like it would never end I didn't eat anything but a sandwich I didn't go to work. I thought about her all ****ing day long. I sat in the house all day. When it came time to go to sleep it toke me 3hrs when I did fall asleep I dreamed about her and woke up about 3 times. But I did it. Today was just as bad, I haven't ate and Usely I eat a lot because I have high metabolism. I did go to work though barely talked I'm sure everyone wondered what was wrong but I tried to show no emotion a few times when I was alone I felt tears coming. Laid in bed all day. Finally got off my ass I'm on my way to the gym with my mom. It seems almost impossible to last until she texts me even though i shouldnt reply or even to last a week. I'm so stressed right now this is too much I feel a nervouse break down I have no one to talk to about my problems I'm just the shy guy that keeps everything inside I only talked to her about thing. Any tips to cont. or make it easier? Or advice
gonefishin Posted February 5, 2013 Posted February 5, 2013 Well don't keep it inside and post here.. Look you done wrong and u admit it.. Time and space will help u both... Don't be under any illusion this is how break ups work they hurt!!!!!!! Don't get used to lying in bed stay busy and work on yourself!!! Hope u get her back
purpledust Posted February 6, 2013 Posted February 6, 2013 been a month since BU but still feeling the same way as you do. hate the never ending sadness i feel each time i woke up. but knowing that he doesn't care about what i feel anymore and happy with his life now made me hate him even more and that's where i get the strength i need to function everyday. he's my best friend for many years and it's really hard knowing that he's not with me anymore, we talked a lot and i miss him so much. instead of breaking NC i vent here. this forum become my best friend for a month now. it helps me a lot.
Author 21heartless Posted February 6, 2013 Author Posted February 6, 2013 Well don't keep it inside and post here.. Look you done wrong and u admit it.. Time and space will help u both... Don't be under any illusion this is how break ups work they hurt!!!!!!! Don't get used to lying in bed stay busy and work on yourself!!! Hope u get her back I'm not holding anything back anymore loveshack will be where I vent from now on right on this threa I hope I get her back also and I hope I get my self eestem and convidence back as well. I'm going to make a few changes for both of us. I miss her a lot. I just finished my first workout. It kicked my ass I'm exhausted I did think about her a lot during it idk. I'm feeling sick I guess because I haven't ate the past 2 days I'm going to force myself to eat healthy tonight. Hopefully I will sleep good tonight
gonefishin Posted February 6, 2013 Posted February 6, 2013 I could be wrong but saying u want her back and u want better self esteem.. Just focus on looking after u.... Make her see its her loss by getting yourself sorted... Don't allow to much time wallowing its a slippery slope... Keep your chin up and don't be afraid too talk to family or friends
Author 21heartless Posted February 6, 2013 Author Posted February 6, 2013 I could be wrong but saying u want her back and u want better self esteem.. Just focus on looking after u.... Make her see its her loss by getting yourself sorted... Don't allow to much time wallowing its a slippery slope... Keep your chin up and don't be afraid too talk to family or friends Yes I'm trying I did decide to talk to my mom about after the gym I couldn't hold it in. She told me to go NC and that she will come around and forgive me if she truly loved me. And I'm going to try and remain positive It's day 3 I woke up about twice in the middle of the night. Then I still ended up being awake 2 hours before work. I guess the workout didnt help with the sleep. I'm tearing up writing this I feel like less of a man it seems like it should be so much easier. Still no word from her and I haven't contacted her. I thought about texting her " can she sleep" but I resisted. Because it would hurt more if she said yes. It's time to get ready for work. I'm going to start praying daily
Author 21heartless Posted February 6, 2013 Author Posted February 6, 2013 Still no word from her should I have flowers sent to her job on valentines day?
Author 21heartless Posted February 8, 2013 Author Posted February 8, 2013 Last night went ok. I went for a run. When I fell asleep I constantly woke up It's day 4 I'm missing her a **** load right now as we speak. I had a bad nights sleep but at work I was almost ok. But how come when I get home all I can think about is her. I almost decided to break NC with an email and I don't even know her address we never emailed was just gonna guess and confess my love!!!! So I know she prob wouldn't of seen it. I want to talk her so bad man this is crazy. I feel like I'm back at the first day and we haven't even talked. I can't even talk to people I'm so damn frustrated. I quit smoking too idk if that's making it worse. I miss her more than anything and I just want to apologize for all the wrong.
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