Ball of nerves Posted February 4, 2013 Posted February 4, 2013 First, I'd like to say that it's not easy for me to post here and that if someone wishes to criticize or judge me, please move on. I've created such a mess in my life. For the past year I've been deeply in love with this man, knowing that nothing could ever come of us. It's now to the point that I've hurt this man repeatedly and need to walk away, but I find it incredibly hard to do. He tried, but came back, only to have me hurt him with my lies yet again. I know I need to walk away, and let him live his life but the thought of him being with someone else makes me physically sick. I left him alone for a few days but now am back in deeper than ever. Why, if I'm the one that made this relationship impossible, am I the one that can't let go and is devastated. I know I've been vague but I don't want to put too much out there for everyone. Basically I'm the jerk who broke his heart repeatedly and am just going to disappear but am hurting unbelievably. What the hell is wrong with me
becks77 Posted February 4, 2013 Posted February 4, 2013 it's hard to say without more detail but I think I know what you're going through - you pushed him away, you hurt him, you thought you could do better...? and now you've realised you want him and it's too late...?
Author Ball of nerves Posted February 4, 2013 Author Posted February 4, 2013 Not exactly. More like everything that came out of my mouth was a lie. And now I'm backed into a corner
becks77 Posted February 4, 2013 Posted February 4, 2013 I don't know if I can help you without the details but why did you lie?
becks77 Posted February 4, 2013 Posted February 4, 2013 wow, ok - look I'm not going to judge and you obviously know that you've done a bad thing otherwise you wouldn't feel so ashamed - all you can do is tell him the truth if you want to have something worthwhile - if you can't tell him the truth then there's no point having a relationship - you can't maintain it based on lies.
mammasita Posted February 4, 2013 Posted February 4, 2013 What does mean? Someone explain please. Urban Dictionary: catfish
Author Ball of nerves Posted February 4, 2013 Author Posted February 4, 2013 No. I know it sounds ridiculous. I'm not proud. I'm looking for help
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