Zammo25 Posted February 2, 2013 Posted February 2, 2013 Tired now. Just about given up on life. Feeling no hope anymore. Just about done.
Author Zammo25 Posted February 2, 2013 Author Posted February 2, 2013 Hoping, really hoping I don't wake up in the morning. I am done now.
Gingerxr2 Posted February 2, 2013 Posted February 2, 2013 What's happened ? To make you think like that ?
Author Zammo25 Posted February 2, 2013 Author Posted February 2, 2013 What's happened ? To make you think like that ? I am finished now. I chuckle when I see people of 25-30 saying " my life is over " , well not really but suck it up, when you are 50 abandoned, alone, broke, ex with a far, far better guy, being treated with utter distain, irrelevance by the ex, like I am a piece of worthless trash now she is happy with Mr Wonderful. At 25-30 I could reinvent myself, get a new career, build my life again, at 50 it is pointless, no one wants to know. I do not have the resolve to go the gym as I am now on a fast downward slope so whats the point ?, any cv over 45 is shreaded and not even read. No my last chance was with my ex and she dumped me and found a far better model. I don't even have the fu*king courage and resolve to kill myself now, that is how weak I am but believe me my life is not worth living now so I truely hope one day soon I will die in my sleep, I really do. I hope and pray for it , to put me out of my misery now.
Author Zammo25 Posted February 2, 2013 Author Posted February 2, 2013 I have 30 pills in a glass with an option and I am seriously having a long think about it.
Author Zammo25 Posted February 2, 2013 Author Posted February 2, 2013 I know the ex is probably about to get into bed with Mr Wonderful now for some fun and I am now done. She has destroyed me totally. No point in denying it.
Gingerxr2 Posted February 2, 2013 Posted February 2, 2013 I am finished now. I chuckle when I see people of 25-30 saying " my life is over " , well not really but suck it up, when you are 50 abandoned, alone, broke, ex with a far, far better guy, being treated with utter distain, irrelevance by the ex, like I am a piece of worthless trash now she is happy with Mr Wonderful. At 25-30 I could reinvent myself, get a new career, build my life again, at 50 it is pointless, no one wants to know. I do not have the resolve to go the gym as I am now on a fast downward slope so whats the point ?, any cv over 45 is shreaded and not even read. No my last chance was with my ex and she dumped me and found a far better model. I don't even have the fu*king courage and resolve to kill myself now, that is how weak I am but believe me my life is not worth living now so I truely hope one day soon I will die in my sleep, I really do. I hope and pray for it , to put me out of my misery now. You know what it's amazing that people pray to die when things don't go there way ! I'm truly sorry that your ex broke your heart and there's nothing that anyone can do or say to make the pain go away, period ! But seriously pull yourself together ! My mum died at 55 and I pray everyday for her ! So stop being so a moron and realise that if you died tomorrow do you think you would remembered better as the guy that went down moaning or the guy that grew a set and got out there and proved your ex wrong and got someone 100x's fitter ?? Jesus mate , there's a tv series in the uk called the undatables ! This is an real people with dissabiltys and they are they get partners ! So your 50 who cares ??? Your get through this !!
Debbie2508 Posted February 2, 2013 Posted February 2, 2013 :)Hi Zammo,don't give up.....you're not the only 50 year old here You never know when YOU will be some lovely lady's Mr Wonderful,someone who deserves you far more than your ex. That's what people tell me,anyway (except obviously I'm a Ms not Mr) and I dont believe them any more than you'll probably believe me......but the thing is,none of us know what's round the corner. You found your ex,you can find another.....hopefully so can I. Keep your chin up 1
Author Zammo25 Posted February 2, 2013 Author Posted February 2, 2013 You know what it's amazing that people pray to die when things don't go there way ! I'm truly sorry that your ex broke your heart and there's nothing that anyone can do or say to make the pain go away, period ! But seriously pull yourself together ! My mum died at 55 and I pray everyday for her ! So stop being so a moron and realise that if you died tomorrow do you think you would remembered better as the guy that went down moaning or the guy that grew a set and got out there and proved your ex wrong and got someone 100x's fitter ?? Jesus mate , there's a tv series in the uk called the undatables ! This is an real people with dissabiltys and they are they get partners ! So your 50 who cares ??? Your get through this !! You have no idea of the fight I have put up so I have more balls than 99% of the guys out there but now I am tired, had enough, can see no future, so hope tonight is the last as there is no hope now.
Amelie1980 Posted February 2, 2013 Posted February 2, 2013 30 pills of what? An unsuccessful overdose could leave you worse off than you are now..... 1
Gingerxr2 Posted February 2, 2013 Posted February 2, 2013 You have no idea of the fight I have put up so I have more balls than 99% of the guys out there but now I am tired, had enough, can see no future, so hope tonight is the last as there is no hope now. I'm not saying you don't have balls ! Maybe you should pray for help not pray for an end ! God will listen and help you if you ask for it ! I believe in you mate don't do this
geegirl Posted February 2, 2013 Posted February 2, 2013 You have no idea of the fight I have put up so I have more balls than 99% of the guys out there but now I am tired, had enough, can see no future, so hope tonight is the last as there is no hope now. This really burns my a**. I volunteer at a hospice and see children and the elderly fighting so hard to live, if only they could get a chance, even when they know the end is at hand. Riddled with all sorts of debilitating diseases. And you're wanting to end it because of some woman? BALLS? Go to a hospice or a cancer unit and you'll see balls. What you have is self-pity. I have a friend, 58, just lost her job, lost her boyfriend six months ago. Is about to lose her home because she can't keep up her mortgage payments and yesterday broke four toes. And she's been cleaning houses to support herself and may now lose the cleaning job because of her injury. Going from wearing suits to rubber gloves to possibly jobless again. I had lunch with her today and although she was down, she's optimistic that things will always work themselves out. Over a woman. SMH. 1
Happypuppy Posted February 3, 2013 Posted February 3, 2013 I'm kinda confused. I have read some of your previous threads, and you seem to have had at least 2-3 exes over the time you have been here? Wich one of them is it that is causing you so muc heartache? And you do realize that it means you are more than able to get a girl yeah? I'm not trying to sound harsh here but you seem to have big issues. One day it's: "I'm over her, I'm gonna be fine", the next day you are thinking of pills....? You need to get a grip on yourself. Stop wallowing in self pity. If you continue then yes; you are going to be miserable. If you stop, you have a whole world out there. Wich one do you choose? I read somewhere that happiness is actually 40% decision. And man, you have decided to be really unhappy. Think of it. How we think about things may change from day to day, even though the circumstances haven't. You need some professional help I think. Call a hotline and then call your doctor in the morning. I promise you, everything will be fine as long as you take some responsibility for your own life and happiness! 1
denxnis Posted February 3, 2013 Posted February 3, 2013 Zammo, Instead of doing something selfish why not try and help others? I know it may sound dumb but I honestly think if you find a way to do some charitable work you will get better. Your life feels empty and meaningless because your ex left you, I understand. However if you help others in need I really do think you will get back on-track and maybe find the right person for you... Yes you may be broke. Yes you may not be the youngest guy around. But you do have 2 hands, some muscles, and tons of experience in life so why not use what you do have to make someone else life a bit better? Don't live for yourself, live for others. 4
mano Posted February 3, 2013 Posted February 3, 2013 yes zammo , that is what i have decided to do, instead of being selfish, live for others, do something for others, trust me. its the best feeling in the world, don't let yourslef get wastted like this, but be a better person, be the reason for others smiles
Minadee Posted February 3, 2013 Posted February 3, 2013 Zammo, I know you're hurting. I know it seems there is no way out. But this pain is temporary. You just have to get through it. I know some days, all we want is someone to give us sympathy and pity, myself being in that situation. But the people on this forum are right, you need a little bit of tough love. Stop calling him Mr Wonderful. You as a person are a living, breathing miracle, and you have the power to do anything you want in your life. You are 50, not 95. I hope you get through this bad day, and realise that taking your life isn't the asnwer.
TaraMaiden Posted February 3, 2013 Posted February 3, 2013 Well, he last posted yesterday evening, at UK 'bed time'.....(11.03pm)
fallenheart Posted February 4, 2013 Posted February 4, 2013 Zammo. I hope you're still alive and reading this. If you really and truly feel like you have nothing to live for, don't just take the pu$$y way out and down a bunch of pills. Do something awesome like rob a bank. If you get shot and killed by the cops, who cares, but if you pull it off? That's so cool! You'd have all that extra cash! Honestly, why not? You have nothing to live for anyway right? May as well go out on a high note! Buy a bunch of coke and snort it while jumping out of an airplane! I've never done either...I bet it's quite a rush! Just don't take anyone else out. That's not cool. Just cause you're ready to check out doesn't make it OK to harm anyone else...not even Mr. Wonderful. Wellllll...OK, you can do a LITTLE harm to him, just don't kill him. Like go up to him and blow your brains out all over his front door....he won't forget that in a hurry, will he? Seriously though, don't kill yourself! 2
Author Zammo25 Posted February 4, 2013 Author Posted February 4, 2013 Thanks for the messages. I hit another low On Saturday night and did not care about my life anymore but I have decided to knock the boozing on the head, take the meds prescribed and see where this takes me as my method was not working. Take care everyone. Zammo.
PlanB123 Posted February 4, 2013 Posted February 4, 2013 you need a hotseat and a bootcamp, mate. bItch will look like a joke to you after you GFTOW 1
Own Worst Enemy Posted February 4, 2013 Posted February 4, 2013 My amazing mum lost her life at 54. There is not one thing I wouldn't do to have her back for an hour. You have your whole life. You have your health. Now I'm not saying you have to be happy with that. But you have the tools to be happy again. Ok so you are fighting on a lot of levels at once. But just start with one. If I were in your shoes, I'd make it my body/the gym as the easiest to control. But if you have to eat an elephant, take small bites. One step at a time.
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