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Dhey, not to go on but I am totally confused and in need of help.

Me and my boyfriend split up two months ago as he "needed space", but I didnt give it to him. My problem was simple, I didnt understand what he needed space about, the reason we had an argument in the first place was because he got a new job, which meant that he was working away a lot, and we wasnt spending enough time together. I also feel that his friends may have had a say as we do have an age gap and they thought I wasnt ready to settle down, but he was.

Then I went out that weekend, and thought it woukd be a great idea to get completely wasted. I was stupid, and because I felt thT he was being so irrational, not really giving me an actual reason why we split, doing it via text, I thought it would be a great idea to go to his house, although he akready tole me not to via text that night. He didnt let me in and I waited outside in the cold for an hour, and decided to go home. He still lives with his parents and I always got on with them, but I think I could have burnt the bridges maybe. He messaged me about how selfish I was, and how angry he was and that I ever turn up to his door uninvited again he would call the police, I explained that I was sorry, but he was too angry.

I then messaged him on Christmas asking for sex, ok I already know that this is just desperate, but he said no, and we got carried on not talking.

I then saw him new years eve, he saw me and went to give me a hug, but I was that shocked, I walked past. Later on that night, we exchanged an awkward smile, but wherever I was, he was. We ended up having a quick talk, I wished him the best for the new year, and left.

He then messaged me the next day, and we were just talking about the night before, and we were actually getting on really well. Then he decided to pop out about how giod a friend of mine looked, and I just couldn't take it, I just burst out, I told him how I heard that he was sleeping with other people, and how much of a bastard he was, he told me ive lost the plot, and we went back to not talking.

Then, a couple of weeks later, I bumped into a friend who is also friends with Michael, and he explained that she didnt think that either of us actually knew what was going on. Next couple of days he messaged me, it was random and it was as if he wanted to say something to me, we were talking like old times, and we agreed to sleep together again, he wanted to do it thr next night, but I explained that I was busy, and thr next night he was. Although he randomly messaged me saying "sofi said you miss me and want to talk" I was totally took back and had no idea what to say, or why he said it, so I replied "I dont think theres really much to say", I got non reply. The next night he messages me asking for sex before work, although I knew that he neve3 did the night shift, so I agreed, and then I told me that he didnt want to, I explained that I knew that was coming and he replied with "oh ive got two offers now" this just told me that he was trying to make me jealous, so I changed my number, deleted his, messaged him via facebook explaining that I do miss him, and do want to talk but I know it wasnt going to happen, and thzt I could accpet just sex, but I cant accept him bragging me about the line of girls he has on the go. He replied how was I bragging, and I simple said your nit meantnto tell me. Deleted him, and heard nothing from him, but I have heard he is going somewhere with another girl maybe, the truth is, I reslly like this guy, and I would walk to the end of this eartg fir him, and I wanna speak to uim, even if we dont get back together, but I dont knoe whether its too much. I jusy dont know what hes thinking