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Hi everyone. I'm not going to rehash everything to catch people up. If you want background color to my story I welcome you to check out my threads. I just wanted to get on here and vent. I saw my most recent ex this afternoon on my lunch break. Haven't bumped into each other for a long time and the times before never bothered me. I don't know why but something about today and seeing her - and I doubt she saw me - struck a sour chord in me and made me upset. We have been apart for going on now 18 mos and have been informed through the grapevine she is serious with someone new. That part doesn't bother me. What does bother me is that even after all this time I can still get a pit in my stomach and my mind racing in a hundred different directions at the site of her. No one before her really ever gave me pause, etc. or made me feel like this. I'm just angry that I can still feel this way and have not broken completely free. Time has healed tons of wounds in my life yet this one still appears to be somewhat open. I just don't get it.

 

I wondered this afternoon if these feelings simply mean that I need to accept that a part of me holds her in high regard and fondness and, although were now (emotionally) miles apart, understand it and move forward. I don't know how else to construe it. Maybe it's my ego, I don't know. Thanks for letting me rant.

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