Diablo3 Posted January 31, 2013 Posted January 31, 2013 (edited) So here how it started, I have known this girl for almost 3 years. We knew so many things about ourselves, we used to talk for hours each night even when I used to work nightshifts I'd text her for so long that I think my work would be left undone next morning due to how much we texted each other, we were like 'bros'. Until last December when she decided that she liked me in a 'romantic way' and I did profess the same thing I held for months already. She sounded very lovely, I knew she was honest because well, I've known her for years now so I didn't think she was lying or messing with me. I spent 2 months with her and each week I realized she'd lose interest in me more and more as the time went by. Well, we had too many fights, and sometimes we'd fight over silly things such as her being overly nice to her friends while treating me as ordinary guy and to the extent of semi ignoring me. And December was the hardest month for me because I had 8 finals and life was getting tougher and messier, so I became somewhat needy and relied on her emotionally. And I knew later on that she hated this about me, she expected me to be more rough than that, but she did rely on me sometimes and I like to think I helped her through so it was kind of a mystery to me as to why she'd get upset about that knowing how 'supportive' she is with others. Anyway, she crossed some lines where she called me names and all that crap, I loved her so much that I wouldn't even do the same thing in retaliation. I couldn't even begin explaining how truthfully I loved her even if I wanted to. The worst part is, she then decided that we were better as bros after hounding me for 2 months giving me the worst emotional sickness I've ever had in very long time, during my finals. We then had this honest talk and well, I appreciated it. And the real reason behind her strange behaviors with me for 2 months is that she moved on to the next best thing, yes she did fall in love with - what she'd call - beloved angel. And then I found out that they were already drawn to each other before she professed her feelings for me, but back then he had no time for her and basically just moved on temporarily then she thought I was good enough for her. Basically, I was just her spare tire lol. They kept texting each other even when she was supposedly 'in love' with me. I don't know how she managed to do such a thing to be honest. Balancing out oneself between 2 guys must be a skill. It's funny because she'd complain to her best friend how I'd not take her seriously at first, because knowing her, she associates with many guys and I thought it could have been a random crush. So then, I decided that I'd take her seriously, and I ended up getting hurt severely. And also, while she was having fun with her beloved angel for a while then, I do remember having a big fight with my best friends for judging our relationship, I told them off when they attempted denouncing her in my presence. And like I said, I can't describe how much she got me to like her. Her confidence, her personality is pretty much aligned with mine and she's unlike most girls I've ever come across. It kind of hurts so badly how she would never look at me in the same way again. I can't seem to be able to get over her. Yet, I like her too much to give her a piece of my mind while she'd call me a backward virgin lol. Edited January 31, 2013 by Diablo3
Inviv_girl Posted January 31, 2013 Posted January 31, 2013 Immature lil' chick lol... move on and fine another girl! this chick will likely jumped off from one d!ck to another to find the "sweet angel" she wants
Author Diablo3 Posted January 31, 2013 Author Posted January 31, 2013 (edited) Idk, I tried so freaking hard to get over her. I decided that I wouldn't talk to her ever again, for like 4 times, and each time I'd wake up in the morning and realize how much I still liked her. It's weird, at one point, I dreamed of apologizing to her only to wake up in the next day doing the exact same thing lol. Normally, I don't apologize to people or anything of the sort, I'm mostly introvert and quiet with people so you could only guess that she made the first move. Anyway, everytime I'd try to settle things with her, she'd grow more rude and blunt, getting touchy over any discussions we'd have and suddenly leave. I don't know if it is something I did. One day I meant the world to her, the next I was just a clingy needy guy that can't get over her. When it wasn't me really who broke the ice and just went full on romantic on that night. I'm not sure what hurts more, blaming myself for what I could have possibly done that ruined our relationship or that she chose a guy she only knew for a couple of months over me, just because he was 'easy'. Edited January 31, 2013 by Diablo3
todreaminblue Posted January 31, 2013 Posted January 31, 2013 Wasnt anything you did diablo, wasnt anything you said or didnt say, definitely wasnt because you needed some affection when you had it tough, it isnt in your looks or your personality its all her.....and her in ability to understand a relationship, she wasnt ready , i would say immature in thought and actions, cutting comments about your sexual experience doesnt show maturity, condescending isnt mature....... wouldnt matter what guy you were or were not she would have left anyway, she hasnt finished playing the field....and no guy or woman for that matter in this life on earth is an angel...we are all full of flaws and future mistakes that we will learn from....no angels unfortunately in this mortal life anyway...you say she wants you to be a bit rougher but goes around calling guys beloved angels.......she doesnt know what she wants and that aint your fault......just count your blessings that you were not the one who had to reply to a text that said oh hark my beloved angel , i adore you diddums, you are so fluffy to me..your wings envelop me with brightness adn make me feel fuzzy with lurrrv my sugary treat sent from above......smilin....i think i just threw up a little bit......got a bucket...????...hugs to yar bud....you now have been given your freedom find a girl who lives in reality fluffykins....lol....retch....choke....cough wheres the bucket......smile....you dodged a bullet..........deb
Author Diablo3 Posted January 31, 2013 Author Posted January 31, 2013 well todreaminblue that kinda made me smile a bit lol. >.> I overthink stuff, specially when mistakes are done, she did notice that I overthink stuff sometimes too. But that's just the way I am, so all I heard from friends is to let go and find someone else that matches me. But trying to 'let go' is hard, especially when I normally keep thoughts in mind to make sure that past mistakes never happen again in the future. Why do I still very attached to her? I don't know that. I can't determine if I hate or love her, I think I mostly love her still. Should I attempt getting her back? that sounds pitiful but I don't know what to do really..
ConfusedHumanBeing Posted January 31, 2013 Posted January 31, 2013 well todreaminblue that kinda made me smile a bit lol. >.> I overthink stuff, specially when mistakes are done, she did notice that I overthink stuff sometimes too. But that's just the way I am, so all I heard from friends is to let go and find someone else that matches me. But trying to 'let go' is hard, especially when I normally keep thoughts in mind to make sure that past mistakes never happen again in the future. Why do I still very attached to her? I don't know that. I can't determine if I hate or love her, I think I mostly love her still. Should I attempt getting her back? that sounds pitiful but I don't know what to do really.. It's rough man....things like this don't go away in a week. Mine was three year relationship and same thing happened. In fact, I lost one of my best friends over the whole ordeal and now I dont talk to him anymore and obviously not her either..... Letting go and accepting is the HARDEST step of them all. Hell, I have still not let go and its been 4+months. I wake up hoping she has a change of heart. Sadly, it wont happen. Im aware of this. PLEASE LISTEN FROM SOMEONE (most of us) WHO HAVE BEEN THERE!! What you have to do is let it go. You feel attached to her because you werent ready to leave it. She was, hence why its easier for her. You still have those connections NOW add on the "I want her because i can't have her anymore" feelings and s*** goes crazy! Hold ALL urges to contact her for right now. This has to be two sided....if she doesnt want to contact you and you keep trying to "win her back", then it wont work I assure you. Keep coming to these boards for guidance and things do get better. SLOWLY but they do
todreaminblue Posted January 31, 2013 Posted January 31, 2013 well todreaminblue that kinda made me smile a bit lol. >.> I overthink stuff, specially when mistakes are done, she did notice that I overthink stuff sometimes too. But that's just the way I am, so all I heard from friends is to let go and find someone else that matches me. But trying to 'let go' is hard, especially when I normally keep thoughts in mind to make sure that past mistakes never happen again in the future. Why do I still very attached to her? I don't know that. I can't determine if I hate or love her, I think I mostly love her still. Should I attempt getting her back? that sounds pitiful but I don't know what to do really.. well good i am glad it made you smile, so i went green around the gills for a good reason...smilin...you have to make the choice whether to try to get her back or not.....i would advise ....nah...but that's your choice to make, if she i contacting you still play it cool, dont let her treat you like crap and call other guys beloved.......tisnt right......if she does talk to you liek crap imagine a guy in pink tights with a tutu and wings attached down on bended knee and her saying arise my beloved angel.....that shoudl make younot feel so bad when she does treat you like crap and maybe you will lose just a touch of respect for her when she is disrespecting you....she isnt very nice you know you need to step back and see that ...i gave you an image to hopefully make you smile when she is disrespecting you ...play i tcool.....she isnt really playing it cool......maintain mystery with a smiel in yrou voice and a come what may vibe......i really think you should leave her with the fairy angelic dust......but whatever you decide ....i hope she respects you more..and i hope you fidn happiness.....fluffykins....green gills........deb
Author Diablo3 Posted February 1, 2013 Author Posted February 1, 2013 (edited) Well then, letting go is the finest resolve so it seems. But I should mention something, I've been already trying to hold all urges to contact her. Hadn't contacted to her for a day but she had, she was wondering why I didn't say hi first. lol o.o Edited February 1, 2013 by Diablo3
Author Diablo3 Posted February 2, 2013 Author Posted February 2, 2013 Yeah I know i'm an Idiot for doing this but I contacted her again, it ended up being called insane and antisocial lol :x, then deleted off FB and filtered. I guess im the one to blame this time.
ConfusedBrain Posted February 2, 2013 Posted February 2, 2013 Dude what you are doing and feeling is normal. You did nothing wrong and she was a user and I know it will be so hard to move on and not talk to her. You have to come to grips with things and know you are human you and will end up giving in to her and as long as she wants your attention but you will have to fight. If you feel the urge to contact her then just come on here and vent bro.
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