McDonald Posted January 30, 2013 Posted January 30, 2013 So confused about my feelings* So its been about a week since NC started. The days are getting better, but I still cant figure what I want. today, everything was alright until I was walking back from my class and ran into her. of course, she was with this other guy who I knew was part of influencing the BU I smiled at her, but she ignored me.. or I think she did idk she had to have seen me this time. we literally walked right past each other. It just hurts because we were so close a few weeks ago.. and now its like we are strangers.I have been talking to her day 1 here at college lat year. She has been in my life since the beginning.. now shes moved on within a few dayss!! Idk what to do.. its all so confusing. its like, I dont want to ruin our friendship... but ugh idk what to say im just venting. she was my first girlfriend. maybe thats why its hard to let go. My mind says I have to move on.. but my heart is saying that I dont want to rid her from my life. Its even harder taht she was my best friend and first friend here in college. And that she changed me throughout the relationship... and then left me for the those reasons (She said things like I dont like partying... So I stopped going out.. now she wants to party etc). maybe GIGS? I dont understand how you can just kick someone out of your life who has been apart of it.
Mr Scorpio Posted January 30, 2013 Posted January 30, 2013 My mind says I have to move on.. but my heart is saying that I dont want to rid her from my life. I dont understand how you can just kick someone out of your life who has been apart of it. You can kick someone who has been part of your life out of it when they have caused you pain. This can be difficult when you still have vestiges of hope and warm feelings for the person. On the other hand, when they have kicked you out of their lives, you simply stay out. Think of it as letting go.
Author McDonald Posted January 30, 2013 Author Posted January 30, 2013 yea. Maybe thats the problem. Im having trouble letting go. I do want to move on, but WE became so dependent on one another ( at least I did) that I lost my sense of individuality; I also lost many friends when I was with her... now Idk I just feel empty and alone.
Author McDonald Posted January 30, 2013 Author Posted January 30, 2013 I know I should have blocked her I Facebook... But I didn't. Now I see pictures of her kissin this other guy that she broke up with me over..it's only been 3 weeks what a b**** move.
Inviv_girl Posted January 30, 2013 Posted January 30, 2013 Oh dear, whatta b*tch! Let her go and block her NOW! you dont deserve the pain she caused. Consider yourself lucky she's put from your life now than later! this kind of girl will likely jump from one dude to another just for fun. You deserve better! let go and move on! I believe you are still young and have long way to go.
Author McDonald Posted January 30, 2013 Author Posted January 30, 2013 I did everything for her, and she played me. She made herself secure in the relationship so I would never leave, but then she left me. Ugh I'm trying to let go.... But idk why I can't!!!!! Maybe I'm trying to save the friendship we had? Is it even worth it?ive never had to kick someone out of my life before. So it's been pretty hard
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