zerovandez Posted January 29, 2013 Posted January 29, 2013 Long story short... My ex of 10 years broke it off 4 years ago to try something new. After less than a year of NC, she intro's back into my life. We aren't together but we often do "together" things even up to sex occasionally. So it's been up and down, in and out, NC and LC for a while. Present day, we are hanging out. She know's I want more, and I know she doesn't want what I want at the moment. Knowing this, I should turn around and just leave. But I know if I want something, I should go for it right? I asked her what she "loved" about me when we started dating. She says she loved how persistent I was in trying to get her attention. So to me, it screems, "chase me I want your attention!" But....I'm not sure if I want to chase. When she first broke it off, I got a new job and was just miserable because of the heartbreak. And now, I'm moving on up and geting another job! I'm not sure if I want her to be a part of me right now; I can't deal with thinking of another heart ache with her. So I guess, should I follow my heart with her and keep an open mind? Or, follow logic and go cold turkey NC/AWOL?
Author zerovandez Posted January 30, 2013 Author Posted January 30, 2013 So yesterday I texted her something silly in the morning, she didn't reply until later that night. She has a habit of leaving her phone at home while she works so I wasn't bothered by it. I followed her reply with a somewhat flirtatious question which she hasn't responded to yet.... I hate knowing the fact that I'm chasing my ex. I think she should want me as much as I want her. After-all, it wasn't me who left and it's sure not me who keeps on phoning her and texting her to initiate conversation after LC or NC. I'm trying to be that "persistent" guy but she's not giving me much to chase and I feel like giving up again. My new job starts on Monday and I won't have a cell phone/phone number after tomorrow. I'm not sure if I should give her my new number at this point. If I do give it to her, we would just be going through this loop all over again. If I don't, well, that would pretty much end her communications with me. It would certainly feel as if it's REALLY over and I get a clean slate but we would lose each other for a long time, if not, forever. I know I'm answering my own thoughts and questions here but I would still like to hear your comments and suggestions.....
TaraMaiden Posted January 30, 2013 Posted January 30, 2013 Nobody's replied because you know what you should be doing. So why tell you something you already know? You have two options: Stop this. Carry on. That's it really, you choose. we don't need to add anything else.
Author zerovandez Posted January 30, 2013 Author Posted January 30, 2013 Yeah I know. I guess I'm just venting my frustrations with my sitution and myself. I think I'll just cool it off until I figure out whats best for me.
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