dianne2013 Posted January 29, 2013 Posted January 29, 2013 (edited) My ex just recently broke up with me and won't have anything to do with me but twice she took me to the park and told me she wanted to get back together she held me and kissed me then went no contact. She has called a few times and texted how much she loves me but is determined to stay no contact she says that she won't come back because I played with her head and there is more going on than just that. Her therapist told her to cut me off cold turkey but again she takes me to the park and hugs me and kisses me and tells me she's happy to have me back in her life. She held my hand and kissed me and then went cold turkey again. She came to visit me when I was in the psychiatric hospital and told me she wanted to try again. But because her therapist told her to cut me off that's what she's done I don't see why we can't be friends. Yes I love her but I would rather be friends than nothing we had such a strong bond and now she won't have nothing to do with me. Could those times in the park really mean anything she has initiated one phone call asking about my grandma and if we could talk in the park. We are both severely bi-polar so I don't know if she'll change her mind and actually talk to me. If she is doing that stuff in the park could there be some form of interest. I don't understand. 40 days of no contact is what I'm aiming for then I'll call her if she doesn't respond then its over. Is there a chance that if she doesn't respond but reads my emails that she may change her mind. That is my greatest fear when we were driving to her house she told me that she doesn't have many friends either and I was her best friend any hope would be greatly appreciated I wonder if one can sleep for forty days my greatest fear is that this is permenant. Has anyone ever gotten an ex to finally talk to them? Does she not know what she wants twice she did twice she didn't. Maybe she'll call within the 40 days maybe she won't probably won't. I don't want to get my hopes up because I'm bipolar I tend to think the worst when she said all of that she was angry The thoughts in my mind are so negative thoughts like why did she say I'm not coming back? Why did she take me to the park and initiate no contact twice? That no matter what I do she'll never speak to me again. I am praying that she'll at least listen to me. With her reaching out like that does it mean that later on we might could at least be friends? Im scared that when the 40 days passes she still won't talk to me. I am scared all interest will be gone. I'm really upset all I do is cry and sleep. Has anyone had an ex be quiet for an indefinite period and then contacted them? I will end now Im going to sleep hopefully she won't have anyone March 12th. I can't go out and do anything until the 40 days are over I'm hoping she'll be stronger and God will reconcile us together. I just want my best friend back in my life. I asked her was she seeing anyone else and she said I didn't have that to worry about I can't tell my mom what happened because she doesn't agree with being lesbian. Edited January 29, 2013 by dianne2013 Left Something Out.
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