McDonald Posted January 28, 2013 Posted January 28, 2013 So these pat few weeks have been hard. Especially since my girlfriend held me on after the breakup, only to hurt me more when I saw her holding hands with someone else. Ive been wanting to talk to her so bad!!!! I know her school schedule because we picked classes together last quarter so we would have classes together etc and up until recently, Ive been trying to run into her so I could say hi or something... maybe start a conversation as i know i cant text her. I think shes with this new guy so she told me to stop. Even though she was the one leading me on after the breakup!! anway, If I would see her on campus, i would sprint to the nearest intersection and try to run into her....I know, terrible. BUTTTT, today I saw her walking across the street. I wasnt looking for her, she just happened to be walking by. usually, I would try to get her to notice me. Except this time I didnt do anything, I just let her walk by. i watched her walk away. She didnt see me. It felt as if i was letting go finally. I didnt want to. I knew where she was going. She was my best friend, the first person I met in college, and my first girlfriend. So its been tough. But for once in three weeks, I feel like I made the right choice. Letting her walk away was like me finally being able to let her go. To give her the space she needs. Im sure she left me because GIGs. It was out of nowhere. But being able to see her and not get try to talk to her, but to let her walk by... it made me realize that i CAN get over this. It did hurt, but soon it will subside. I couldnt have done it without this site. I have been in NC for 4 days and though its painful, It really helps as I would have never been able to do this without it. Thanks a lot loveshack. You guys really have no idea how amazing the advice here is. I still want her... I still want her as a friend... But I know that right now, its unatainable... And I feel like im making the right decisions and the ball is finally in my court, instead of hers.
Author McDonald Posted January 29, 2013 Author Posted January 29, 2013 Ugh wow how emotions change. I just saw her again... It's a small campus. I'm sure she saw me. She didn't even smile. Didn't even look. Just kept walking. It hurts because I really was not at fault at all. I did nothing wrong the whole relationship. It sucks how it's like this and it's not fair. She was my best friend before.. How do u take someone out of your life?
Loved77 Posted January 29, 2013 Posted January 29, 2013 She was my best friend before.. How do u take someone out of your life? Do what I & the majority of us on here are doing. Easy to say I know but stay NC. Our ex's are like a drug & we are addicted to them. We need to wean off them until we can go back to our normal self. Just think of the day when you can go to bed , smile & not feel any emotional connection for them. Good luck
Author McDonald Posted January 29, 2013 Author Posted January 29, 2013 Yea. I just have to get past the point of me still wanting her; because yes I can't wait till this will stop bothering me, but then there's a part of me that is saying that I want to achieve that by getting her back:/
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