JamesD Posted January 28, 2013 Posted January 28, 2013 Hey All, Stumbled Upon This Website Searching For Answers, Thought Id Share My Own Little Story And Probably Get Some Advice. I am James, Passed out from university about two years back, My story starts when I was in High School, I met this girl, and we started dating, we dated for about 2 years in total. To be honest i wasn't very nice to her, i was overly possessive and i kind off cheated on her in between our relationship and still She was very supportive of me, helped me to get through lot of things which probably would have ruined my life if it wasn't for her. She did know about me cheating 6 months into the relation and she still stuck on to me, we went out another year and a half till high school ended. Between the 3 month gap of starting university, I came to know she was cheating on me through a few friends. I was a wreck, Unlike her i couldn't be understanding and I left her, she never came to know that i got to know she was cheating. I left her without giving her any reason at all and never looked back. I knew I kind of broke her bad because even if she did cheat, she did love me, and that was my way of wanting to hurt her. Life moved on in our separate directions in different universities, tho for the first 6 months in university she still tried contacting me and we did casually speak a few times. Till we cut out completely. I started Dating someone else for a short while it didn't work out either because somewhere i was searching for my ex in the new girl. I didn't bother for another year it flew by with friends and studies. Coming to the last third year of university we connected again when i was in a different country for my education. We spoke and messaged online for quite a while indulged in a bit of past talking, except i still didn't give her the real reason as to why i left as i thought it didn't matter then till in sometime we cut off for another year again. I realized that, she was the only one person for me, at the end of university but didn't approach her as she was dating someone else then. A Year Later I ended up getting into depression, I just wanted her back anyhow by any means. Once I got to know she wasn't dating anyone for the past 6 months. I tried getting into conversation with her, right from long text conversations to drunk talking and even telling her why i left. I did everything I could to get her back. One Day after about 3 months of us talking I Proposed her again. She Denied, I Was Heart Broken. We Cut Out Completely. Its been about 1 year past that, I am still not over her, I still want her to be back. I know its a Very Stupid Idea. I keep Convincing myself I have lost my head and that no one comes back after 4 years. But somehow there are still days that i just don't seem to get her of my mind be it at work or when i am out drinking with friends it doesn't seem to work out. I believe the only way left for me is to go for it the third time before i loose my mind and become an alcoholic, so if she does reject me(which she will) this time i will surely get over her once in for all. I know I'm not very good at narrating stories, Must be tragically boring to read all the above. But would really like some views and help.
TaraMaiden Posted January 28, 2013 Posted January 28, 2013 You're ill-equipped emotionally to be in any kind of relationship right now, and i think you could do with some professional guidance. Therapy or counselling, because you can't seem to handle life at all, and are pinning your desire for happiness on one woman. Which is unfair, unreasonable and unrealistic. You can never, but NEVER be truly happy with anyone else, until you are truly happy with yourself, and who you are. Keep away from her. You need fixing, and the only fixer - is you. 2
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