Big Fat Drama

[Suzanne Earl]

I have been involved with a man for two months. he kicked his wife out and we were happy. Then he went back to her. Now we are broken up but he tells me he still loves and wants to be with me but he can't handle the guilt. He said no one deserves to be cheated on and that he can't leave her for me. It has to be another reason. I belive him but I have to let go because this is destroying me. I do not know how to act around him at work. (This is awful, never sh@$&* where you eat). He wants us to be friends because he can't imagine me not being in his life, but right now I hate him for what he is doing and I feel like he walks around work like nothing happened and he never made love to me or even knew me at all. Of course we have to act that way but it is extrmely aggravating. Another twist to the situation is that not only is his wife bulemic but she is an illegal alien from poland. This is also keeping him there. He has a great sense of responsibility to help her get her green card. Also they have no kids. he has three by his first wife. The current wife didn't want to have anything to do with them, until I came along and she realized there was competition. Now she treats him like a king but it is all fake. Once she realizes we are broken up and there is no more competition, she will go right back to acting like a selfish person. His mom loves me, His sister loves me, his kids adore me and so does his ex-wife. She told me I'd make a great step mom. Why is he throwing away a new happy life for one that is very broken already? What does she have to make him stay. Everybody loves me and hates his current wife. What is this man thinking? I told him everything we have is being destroyed and that my love for him is turning into some serious hate. I suppose from feelings of rejection but I guess I never though of him as cruel and that's how I feel right now. I am depressed and currently on meds and couseling but nothing seems to stop my thoughts of him. I wish he's get out of my head. I wish I would have never met him. We are so compatible in every way. I am preferably looking for a male response to this. I need some male insight. Females welcome to respond to. No haters only supporters

[littleflowerpot]

i know how that hurt and anger feels. i hope the best for you.