incandescent Posted January 27, 2013 Posted January 27, 2013 (edited) I am slowly moving on… I’ve hit an anger stage, and think about the times she treated me like ****… So if I were to say anything to her, it would be around the lines of this: VENT BEGIN! Ex GF, if you remember there were more than several times that I wanted to breakup with YOU, because I felt very unhappy and fell out of love with you MULTIPLE times… Simply because you treat me like ****, you would roll your eyes at me, you would snap at me for no reason, you would lie to me, you would break my promises, you would pressure me for sex, and just be downright disrespectful! First time I wanted to break up with you after MULTIPLE lies “Ex GF, I don’t think we are going to work” then you would be like “ooooh no I’m so sorry! I didn’t see it that way, im so sorry!” then you would get mega tear on’s, and I would say “ok… promise me you’re not going to lie to me anymore” and you would promise, and say you never wanted to hurt me. Then a week later my love for you that I had come back even stronger than ever… second time around, think you snapped at me for no reason (Ex GF friend was a witness) and that really ****ed me off, so again, “I don’t want to be in a relationship with you, I don’t think we are working” and you would go “I am so sorry! Please give me another chance!” start getting a tear on again, and I would say “OK, let’s try this again”, and within a week my love for you came back again, but even more stronger than before… rinse and repeat for the 10 months of our relationship, my love kept coming back for you stronger and stronger every time that happen… I think that’s why I’m finding it hard to move on at the moment… During our relationship, all this made me feel less confident, more boring, and generally unhappy. But I loved you, and was willing to let things get better… but they didn’t, because the lies kept coming harder and faster than before, it was ****ing hell. If you remember at the start of our relationship, I was a fun guy, loved my social life, and I was more confident… YOU made me boring, YOU made me less confident, YOU made me react badly to things, YOU made me less trustworthy of you, YOU made me insecure, YOU ****ed up my life. The sad thing is I NEVER lied to you, not even once… just shows how much you respected me. And I was an absolute idiot forgiving you so many times… lesson learnt. I actually cared more about you, than my own wellbeing… massive mistake… but again, lesson learnt. (she dumped me) VENT END! 20 days NC... days are going so slowwwwwwww Edited January 27, 2013 by incandescent 1
cavalier99 Posted January 27, 2013 Posted January 27, 2013 (edited) Keep it up man. Never break NC. Erase her out of your mind. She doesn't deserve your thoughts. None of them do while we are recovering. Time will return to normal in the next couple weeks. Go out and get laid or hookup and hang with friends.. Rock on! Cav Edited January 27, 2013 by cavalier99 1
iouaname Posted January 27, 2013 Posted January 27, 2013 I get into the "anger" stage every once in a while. It definitely helps to find a way to just vent it without contacting them. I'm hoping that eventually, I'll cycle through all of the thoughts in my head so much that I'll get tired of them and eventually just stop thinking about him all together... 2
Author incandescent Posted January 27, 2013 Author Posted January 27, 2013 it just really pisses me off that she doesn't know any of this, i felt it was a bit harsh to say this to her whilst we were in a relationship... but i'm made out the bad guy for being insecure and not trusting her... i just really want to tell her how she ****ed things up... :/ but i wont be breaking NC, don't worry. but if she does ring me, i'm going to tell her exactly what i think of her.
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