Amelie1980 Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 I feel terrible now.... My ex and I went to the London 2012 Olympic games last year. I went to some events alone too. So last night I was lonely & bored and looking for things to do. Tried kicking off text conversations with friends but no takers. I was looking on the net at some events I went to at the Olympics...videos etc. the first one I find has a crowd shot with my ex and I standing and holding hands. I feel like s--t now.....want him back so badly again.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 I feel terrible now.... My ex and I went to the London 2012 Olympic games last year. I went to some events alone too. So last night I was lonely & bored and looking for things to do. Tried kicking off text conversations with friends but no takers. I was looking on the net at some events I went to at the Olympics...videos etc. the first one I find has a crowd shot with my ex and I standing and holding hands. I feel like s--t now.....want him back so badly again. Arghh those little things can do so much damage I break down at little memories as well... I think you only have two choices... don't look at those things and try forget it. Or look at it. Cry your heart out. And hope to feel better afterwards. I want mine back as well... But it's not going to just happen because I want it that way. it's really hard cause I'm struggling as well.
LostOne1 Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 Arghh those little things can do so much damage I break down at little memories as well... I think you only have two choices... don't look at those things and try forget it. Or look at it. Cry your heart out. And hope to feel better afterwards. I want mine back as well... But it's not going to just happen because I want it that way. it's really hard cause I'm struggling as well. Crying is the best thing. I saw a bag I have on my jacket stand. It's the bag she got me when we had the olympics and we both spent a lot of time having fun that day. But the truth is I shrug it off and tell myself SHE had a chance to keep it going and didn't.. so it's not my fault she doesn't want me.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 Crying is the best thing. I saw a bag I have on my jacket stand. It's the bag she got me when we had the olympics and we both spent a lot of time having fun that day. But the truth is I shrug it off and tell myself SHE had a chance to keep it going and didn't.. so it's not my fault she doesn't want me. I'm crying every single day, I'm so sick of myself and how Miserable I am... I'm not even improving. Maybe if I was gettin better I would feel better and stronger but I'm exact same
LostOne1 Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 I'm crying every single day, I'm so sick of myself and how Miserable I am... I'm not even improving. Maybe if I was gettin better I would feel better and stronger but I'm exact same the problem is the pain has to fade to get better. What I realized is you have to find a way to know your ex hates you. I look at how low my ex fell and I jsut have enough motivation to not want to even know she existed.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 the problem is the pain has to fade to get better. What I realized is you have to find a way to know your ex hates you. I look at how low my ex fell and I jsut have enough motivation to not want to even know she existed. Ok then I'm guilty for calling him up randomly one mornin. I woke up and wasnt thinking. He was shocked. He told me he can't stop thinking about me. And that he was planning to move overseas. This is coming from a guy that is scared of change and going to new places. One of the reasons he left me was cause he was more comfortable up there where he has friends... I asked him why and he said his changed. I don't get it... His moving cause he can't stop thinking about me? Or his just saying it to worry me
LostOne1 Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 I think hes trying to get space from you.. so he can get you out of his mind. My ex wanted space too. I think they think about us but are annoyed with us too. Thats why we leave them alone to figure themselves out.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 I think hes trying to get space from you.. so he can get you out of his mind. My ex wanted space too. I think they think about us but are annoyed with us too. Thats why we leave them alone to figure themselves out. Yeah I guess but he insist on being friends. he told me it was fine to call him and I told him it was too hard for me. Why tell me his not happy. His te one that decided on this. I'm not even goin back and forth anymore! I'm stuck!!! In this spot where I miss him and wish he would just come back.
cavalier99 Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 Yeah I guess but he insist on being friends. he told me it was fine to call him and I told him it was too hard for me. Why tell me his not happy. His te one that decided on this. I'm not even goin back and forth anymore! I'm stuck!!! In this spot where I miss him and wish he would just come back. They're not coming back. This is the tough part to deal with. As NO FOOLIN said we cant go home. I still struggle with the permanence of the whole thing but I'm accepting it. Stop crying so much and walk tall ok? And don't talk to him any more it will just mess you up.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 They're not coming back. This is the tough part to deal with. As NO FOOLIN said we cant go home. I still struggle with the permanence of the whole thing but I'm accepting it. Stop crying so much and walk tall ok? And don't talk to him any more it will just mess you up. Why am I pinning over this one guy? I don't even understand myself! human nature I suppose. Want things that u no longer have. sometimes I have to lie to myself. Otherwise I cry my eyes out at work and everywhere. Life's tough I'm do over it right now 1
cavalier99 Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 sometimes I have to lie to myself. This is a good thing to do. I tell myself lies all the time until they begin to become reality. Are they really lies now? E.g. I'm over this, I'm grateful we broke up, I'm getting better, I'm super happy, I'm confident, I look great and walk with confidence etcetera. Every time i think of her i run thru a ton of positive affirmations in my mind. I'M BEGINNING TO BELIEVE THEM! Ha! Cav
FailedFirstLove Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 This is a good thing to do. I tell myself lies all the time until they begin to become reality. Are they really lies now? E.g. I'm over this, I'm grateful we broke up, I'm getting better, I'm super happy, I'm confident, I look great and walk with confidence etcetera. Every time i think of her i run thru a ton of positive affirmations in my mind. I'M BEGINNING TO BELIEVE THEM! Ha! Cav Lols if that worked then I would be alright. No I have to lie to myself sometimes that he will come back.
cavalier99 Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 Lols if that worked then I would be alright. No I have to lie to myself sometimes that he will come back. Well there is the problem. I NEVER lie to myself that she is coming back. Gone gone gone forever..like a death. I think it is best to think this way...probably because it is reality lol.
Author Amelie1980 Posted January 23, 2013 Author Posted January 23, 2013 Well there is the problem. I NEVER lie to myself that she is coming back. Gone gone gone forever..like a death. I think it is best to think this way...probably because it is reality lol. Its making me feel like sh it to think like that but it's the truth. 1
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