Panda87 Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 Its been a rollercoaster for me. Sometimes im good, sometimes im in pain. Recently i realize the pain come from comparing myself to her current gf. She is so much better than me, emotionally stable, financially too, more mature, more patient, more romantic. This comparison eat my self-esteem and my confidence. I keep blaming myself, and all those bad memories with her mostly come because i was too sensitive with her. I know she already over me long time ago, i also realize that she get close with her this person when we are still together. Just not sure why she can be so happy in front of me, knowing that im so hurts. She knows in the beginning when we still together, i always get jealous when she go out with this girl. But she always assure me nothing happen between them, she has no feeling for her. Now she choose to be with her, i find it very selfish and cruel. Trust me, im letting her go. I dont even think i love her anymore. But i dont know why i get so hurts when i see her happy face. She can laugh and smile in front of me, after texting her... I cant wait for the moment that i realize i never think abt her anymore.
fallenheart Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 First and more importantly.....NO CONTACT. Duh! Stop talking to her, stop talking to her friends and family, remove all evidence of her from your comnputer. NO FACEBOOK! Cut every scrap of evidence of her out of your life like a cancer!!
Author Panda87 Posted January 23, 2013 Author Posted January 23, 2013 Hi fallenheart, i delete everything abt her. Everything... Just not the memories that i have with her, it just hurts so much that i have been replaced so easily... And she is my coworker, so as much as i want to remove her i just cant... I see her laugh and smile everyday, it just hard to let go... Now my mind is filled with her laugh and she enjoys time with this new girl. It hurts so bad...
fallenheart Posted January 23, 2013 Posted January 23, 2013 It must be hard to see her every day at work....impossible even. I guess that's why it's a bad idea to date co-workers. Can you quit and get a new job?
Author Panda87 Posted January 23, 2013 Author Posted January 23, 2013 I have resign but my boss ask me think again. Because i work there for 3 years... So its kinda hard for them lo let me go. I guess it is about the time for me to quit, since i dont really love what i am doing right now. Plus this problem with my ex, just couldnt bear to keep opening my wounds everytime i see her. This is life, when you fall for someone you get blinded by the fact that she is your coworker. You just keep continue after seeing all those red flags
Author Panda87 Posted January 23, 2013 Author Posted January 23, 2013 Anyway i read your stories, i hope you are doing fine there. Everybody at some point will face being rejected and heart broken. It just how we see it, everyday i always tell myself there is someone else better for me out there. And this pain is a gift from God so i can learn to be better person. We are human, we all make mistakes.
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