trustinmyself Posted January 22, 2013 Posted January 22, 2013 Ive been reading these forums and I find them very supportive and not self loathing and vengeful like some others out there. I could use some advice on a matter that has bruised my heart. quick recap: ex broke up with me in the fall and then left town almost immediately. I was Heart broken, depressed, sad.. everything you can imagine. * I was led on for 3 mth's following. A lot of mixed signals. * Finally told her to stop contacting me around new years. I couldn't take the false hope any longer. (people say they wish they would get the mixed signals..believe me. You don't). * Few weeks after I went NC, I received an email from her. She sent me some photos she had of me. (Nothing sexual). I thought it was a bit odd so I never responded. Still NC. That leads me to recently. * I accidentally called my X. Thought I was calling a friend. She didnt answer, I hung up after 2 rings. A few minutes later, I got a text from her. She told me she was at work and asked what I wanted. Thinking back, it was was a curt message. * I responded with a nice message back: I dialed incorrectly, thanked her for the photos and....... THEN!!! stupidly mentioned a "shared memory" I was reminded of the other day. I ended it by wishing her a good day and that was that. I never heard back. Not that I thought I would. It was a mistake to begin with. I guess my question is, am I complete bone head? I feel like I lost the small bit of self power/worth I have had in this whole thing. I know you need to be gentle with yourself when you fall back and find forgiveness with yourself but it is so much easier said then done. It feels like the person who loved me so much suddenly does not care. To be honest, I still do care. I still have such deep feelings for her. NC was/is for me to move on. advice? opinions? Thank you for your time.
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