ex skype sex fail

[my body is a cage]

Hi,

 

So, my ex and I broke up due mostly to circumstances I think, but it is in my nature to blame myself for not being good enough. We were long distance. He is going through a lot financially, w his living situation, w his babymamma getting married and moving w miles away with his son.

 

Anyway, even though we broke up two months ago, he often calls me and tells me how he cares about me and loves me and really desires me, and has not been pursuing anyone else. He is going through an especially hard time right now so I have been trying to give him space, but I do love and care for him too.

 

However, sometimes I feel like he pushes the sexual aspect of our relationship too much. I'm not sure if he just thinks he loves me because he has not pursued other women, and just misses sex. Recently he has also been talking about seeing each other gain, which he has always talked about, but it is getting more aggressive. I know he would never use me for sex a lone and does legitimately care about me, but I am uncomfortable having sex with him outside of a relationship because of my feelings towards him.

 

Anyway, today we talked on the phone and had a lovely phone call. We talked about all sorts of fun things we were going to do in the future, he confided his feelings in me. We spoke for almost an hour. He said he would be thrilled to skype a bit, and I agreed. A couple of hours later he called, so we skyped.

 

Now, HERE is where the main issue comes in: since he just moved, he has shoddy internet connection. We were skyping, and the screen kept of freezing and we were unable to hear each other properly. We had Skype sex, and even though he said how pretty I looked, how much fun he had, how that was great... he didn't finish!

 

Objectively people tell me I am very good looking (and so is he). My friend pointed out we could both easily be seeing other people, but don't want to.

 

I didn't pry as to why he didn't finish - it could be factors like stress, bad skype connection, or even him smoking weed - but why force skype sex so aggressively, and then not be able to finish? He said he enjoyed it, we talked for another hour afterwards and he called me beautiful again, etc.

 

But if he enjoyed it, why didn't he finish? Is it possibly to enjoy masturbation without cumming? Even though he said how pretty I looked, I am worried that the problem is ME: that I wasn't attractive enough, not sexy enough, turned him off, have been pushing for intimacy too much and he is uncomfortable. I am worried that he is / was hung up on me sexually, but now realizes he is not so attracted to me at all. The awkward hour long conversation that ensued was not so confidence inspiring either, although he did call me baby etc.

 

So basically my question is: Why didn't he finish? Was it my fault? Or other factors? Does he really love me or did he think he loved me but only desired me because he thought he couldn't have me, and now will realize he didn't / doesn't love me at all? Will he be embarrassed / resent me because he didn't finish? When a guy doesn't finish in this situation, WHY does this happen?