puzzled1 Posted January 18, 2013 Posted January 18, 2013 Okay so throughout my whole 3.5 year relationship, my ex had a "friend" that secretly loved her. Even though she knew that, she still stayed friends with him. In the beg, I was very uncomfortable but then it was actually kind of funny how pathetic it was. She did not want anything besides friendship and that's all she took. Well, 2 years into the relationship, she started to tell me that she saw me more of friends than lovers. I said we can try to spice things up and change our attitude and mannerism. We got thru that and everything was good. Now, my dream was about our last meet up, she said I really miss my best friend. I just ignored that and told her I miss my gf. Anyways, in my dream, she had me wrapped around her fingers like she did her "friend" and her new bf was laughing at me, calling me pathetic and a loser. That created soo much heat inside me that I was ready to get up and beat his ass. In my dream I fought him and my ex was rooting for him. That whole scenario increased my anxiety and I ended up crying when I woke up... My mind created this whole scenario that we are fighting inside our heads and made it physical. And I am not loosing this fight! I am not even going to fight, I am just going to walk away with my head held high. I am not going to be her friend. She is the one that lost. She lost someone that deeply cared for her. She lost someone that looked past her imperfections. This is what I am going to think about when I want to break NC. Let today be a GREAT day!! 1
cavalier99 Posted January 18, 2013 Posted January 18, 2013 That was a weird dream. Did you win the fight? You'll be fine bro. Just stick with NC like your life depends on it. Don't get sucked back into the pit. Your brain will try to trick you, she will probably try to trick you. Don't give in whatever you do no matter how confident you start to feel. The only thing you should be thinking about is holding onto NC for dear life.
Author puzzled1 Posted January 18, 2013 Author Posted January 18, 2013 I remember punching him in the face and his nose started bleeding but instead of him hurting, I was hurt. It was weird, I am on a man period haha. She really f*cked me up. All I am saying is her friend tried so hard to get with her but she wasn't having it. He still tries till this day! I am not going to be friend-zoned! She just needs me to support her while bang some other dude. F that shyt!! 1
Coping Vortex Posted January 18, 2013 Posted January 18, 2013 I remember punching him in the face and his nose started bleeding but instead of him hurting, I was hurt. It was weird, I am on a man period haha. She really f*cked me up. All I am saying is her friend tried so hard to get with her but she wasn't having it. He still tries till this day! I am not going to be friend-zoned! She just needs me to support her while bang some other dude. F that shyt!! My ex tried to friend zone me yesterday. No way. I will not grovel for breadcrumbs. We should be in bed having deep passionate sex not talking about the weather and whats for dinner. Anything less means nothing to me. 2
Author puzzled1 Posted January 18, 2013 Author Posted January 18, 2013 She started to tell me that if we don't work out at the end, she still wants me in her life. Apparently she said that to her bf and he agreed to hang out together. I honestly laughed so hard inside the restaurant that everyone started looking at me weird lol I said to her, I never want to see him, even if you get married to him with kids, I will not want to meet your kids! She looked at me like I was crazy. But who cares about what she thinks anymore. 1
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