Dkp Posted January 18, 2013 Posted January 18, 2013 Was holding on to that hope for nothing... This person has been back and fourth with this other girl for the past three months after we found out he was dating both of us.. Too long of a story so much had happened between the last threads I posted. But this is what I'm feeling tonight. The pain is so deep tonight. Realizing I didn't mean anything to this person.. I wasn't worth it to him.. Worth telling the truth worth the fight for. I want it to be so badly so so bad. I don't understand why. I was so naive and so in love. Gave it my all and it was t enough for this person. He really doesn't care. I wish he could feel what I feel but it's clear he doesn't and its such a difficult thing to accept. When will this pain in my heart go away. I promise to never allow myself get to this point again in my life. To not devote my life to another expecting the same love in return. I just pray to GOD to give me the strength to get past this. I'm so weak and would take him back in the drop if a dime for what reason i don't even kno.. He betrayed me like no other.. I'm just still so hurt and for some reason still holding onto hope and idk why. Why can't my heart match what my head is telling me. The rejection is taking such a tole on me. Lord please help me.
Stoic44 Posted January 18, 2013 Posted January 18, 2013 (edited) Guy sounds like a 10-of-10 on the douche-a-meter. If it's any consolation, cheaters in Dante's Inferno are usually placed in an area where they are eternally lashed by foul, dark winds. If the cheating involved some act of seduction, they go into a lower area where they must forever march in a line being whipped by demons. I think you should sleep well Edited January 18, 2013 by Stoic44 3
jovan Posted January 18, 2013 Posted January 18, 2013 Just forget it. You don't deserve that, so just find some1 else who will appreciate you. 1
TaraMaiden Posted January 18, 2013 Posted January 18, 2013 You need to get a grip girl... Go back to your old threads... the titles alone will tell you why he's a walking disaster and a tragedy waiting to happen. Then ask yourself: Why is a beautiful and loving lady like you, willing to settle for something you should be scraping off your shoe? You really want to lick the schytt he's willing to give you, off the sidewalk? Because that's what he's telling you is all you're good for. And the way you're feeling right now it looks like you're agreeing with him. 4
crashvector Posted January 18, 2013 Posted January 18, 2013 Was holding on to that hope for nothing... This person has been back and fourth with this other girl for the past three months after we found out he was dating both of us.. Too long of a story so much had happened between the last threads I posted. But this is what I'm feeling tonight. The pain is so deep tonight. Realizing I didn't mean anything to this person.. I wasn't worth it to him.. Worth telling the truth worth the fight for. I want it to be so badly so so bad. I don't understand why. I was so naive and so in love. Gave it my all and it was t enough for this person. He really doesn't care. I wish he could feel what I feel but it's clear he doesn't and its such a difficult thing to accept. When will this pain in my heart go away. I promise to never allow myself get to this point again in my life. To not devote my life to another expecting the same love in return. I just pray to GOD to give me the strength to get past this. I'm so weak and would take him back in the drop if a dime for what reason i don't even kno.. He betrayed me like no other.. I'm just still so hurt and for some reason still holding onto hope and idk why. Why can't my heart match what my head is telling me. The rejection is taking such a tole on me. Lord please help me. I am so sorry...if there was a way that I could fix everyone's pain, I would. It's terrible to see so many people hurting, including myself. I, too, am fighting the urge to be jaded....the urge to tell myself "never again". The only reason I'm NOT is because it means that they win. It means the people to broke our hearts have also broken our spirit. You see, you can give someone your heart and still be yourself, but you can NOT give away your spirit. It is something that is unique to YOU, and honestly isn't yours to give away in the first place. Hence, you never lost it in the first place. Took me about a month (WOW! in 9 days it will be MONTH since she left after 5 years).....before I realized that my spirit is still here. I'm a fighter...literally and figuratively. I WILL fight this urge, and you know what? I dont know you, but I can tell enough about you by what you wrote to know that YOU are, too. 1
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