crashvector Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 We all reach that inevitable point where eventually, we must move on. Not because we WANT to, but because we HAVE to; there is no other choice. It does not diminish what was real, or the fact that we desperately wish things were different. It is an acceptance that no matter how much we WANT things to be different, they are not. Unfortunately, time only moves forward and we are dragged along with it. It does not mean that our memories mean any less, or that we wouldn't choose a different path if we could. To move on when we are left with no other choice is the only choice we have. Starting this weekend, I am going back to the gym with my old MMA trainer. I made the phone call this morning, and I told him "I want you to kick my @ss. I'm talking two months of the hardest workouts that you can imagine." In 60 days, I want my 6-pack back, and I'm gonna invest heavily in "sweat equity". I don't want to be huge, but I want my old body back, the one I had about a year ago before a couple injuries kept me from being as active. I figure my self esteem has taken a HUGE blow, and I could think of no better place to start to reclaim it than by making sure I am in the best physical shape that I could possibly be in. Also, working out to the point of complete muscle failure has been proven to release massive amounts of dopamine in your brain...which God above knows...i desperately need. 7
Amelie1980 Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 Wow. you've been through so much worse & you're recovering way better. I don't feel able to go back to the gym yet.
Author crashvector Posted January 17, 2013 Author Posted January 17, 2013 Wow. you've been through so much worse & you're recovering way better. I don't feel able to go back to the gym yet. People like me are very resilient. Like the other user here who has what I have stated, its hard for people NOT like us to understand it. I'm not RECOVERING. I am BURYING. There's a very large difference. I will never be able to fully recover. I am doing the best I can to compartmentalize my pain (and make no mistake, I am still in immense pain).
Allumere Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 Thats a great idea crash..and as you know it can do wonders in helping with the moods and self esteem. It helps us non-superman types as well. I work out about 2 hours a day but I am thinking I need something more kick ass/interactive as lapping through the equipment can leave me with "think time" and that isn't good....I think I just want to punch something or someone...makes me smile thinking about it!!!
Harradin Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 I can relate to this a lot. Especially the moving on part. I p*ssed around during the first year of A Levels when I should have been working, failed everything and got really low so I just stayed in my room for days and only came out to eat etc. My mum then dragged me to the gym she had joined (she had guest passes,) I ended up getting my own membership and became a gym rat pumping iron for 2 months, I got pretty hench. But then when people recognised and complimented me (I've always been low in confidence/self esteem etc) I didn't like it and got lazy so basically ruined all the hard work. But about to start properly with a new regime (judo/kickboxing/swimming/gym) and diet next week, mostly for my motorsport but I also want my old body back. Good luck for the training and hope you stick to it!
todreaminblue Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 I believe in the workout to exhaustion levels, I have dropped masses of weight actually, feel good endorphins get released.....On my night walks I have been failing though almost not making it home, but stepping it up at gym instead, walking at night is starting to depress me, especially when i see couples everywhere.So giving it a break going to take myself out at gym, getting fit is a way to control what is happening to you , controllign movement and thought and channeling it into muscle building i have six months i am going to be the athlete i once was again........and now i have two life insurance policies....lol....I am going to do a triathlon and swim to new zealand in the swim leg.....just keep swimmin..im kidding....maybe not....feel like going overseas though....deb
FailedFirstLove Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 I'VE been going to the pools with a friend almost everyday. I doń swim laps but I like paddling aroud and just talking. the sauna also feels really good as well. I find doing something like that helps me to get tired and sleep through the nights without waking up. Nights are my fav time. I can no longer do anything anymore and it marks the end of anothe day that I have survived!
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