stevie_23 Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 Ok, so my ex is totally NC. He dumped me. NC has been his way of moving on. Blah, blah. BUT he keeps writing songs. He never sends them to me or anything of course, but we go on the same songwriting forums (as I write songs too) and so I see when he does a new song. The first one he did back in early December was called “Remember” and it was the first I knew that he’d left me the week before. Cause he went NC without even telling me he’d left. The first words were “It’s done”. God, that killed me. The rest was along the lines of “It’s done…but if we remember…we will have our time again. Time is not our friend, but if we remember, it will come around again.” The next song he did was between Christmas and New Year, and was called “Meet Me In Your Dreams”. About meeting me in a dream as this is the only way we can be together now. Meeting on the “second landing” (meaning our second chance, our next / future life when we can try to be together again). Now he’s just done a new song called “A Heart Like Mine”. It’s about how just beneath the surface is cold steel and it’s there to deal with the hurt and pain of having a heart like his. “Old feelings lie like dirt in a heart like mine.” Hmm. I wonder what that means. Dirt? I don’t think he meant that in a bad way. lol. Maybe they lie like dirt because they’re…dormant…just lying there…doing nothing. Or they’re the basis of…something. The first layer. Who knows. Another line was “Hold onto that feeling…cause that’s the sign. Cause there will be healing…just in time.” Yeah. “Hold still and hold onto that feeling…it’s a cheap thrill but you’re resigned…to the deep chill that comes from dealing with a heart like mine.” Yeah. “Old proof lies just beneath the surface of an old field in the folds of time, but cold truth is buried deep in a heart like mine.” So…yeah. It’s total NC but…there are still songs.
na49 Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 My ex was in choir. She sang, played the piano and clarinet. Her voice was nothing special, and she was really insecure about her skills. She cheated on me with some 24 year old rock star who's an alcoholic. She never really did anything cool with her music skills for me personally. Sure she sang, but only sang songs that she wanted to. I always encouraged her to practice but for some reason she still thought I wasn't supportive? Oh well, I'm not her, maybe to her I wasn't supportive. I definitely tried to be though. She sang "someone like you" all the freaking time so now I can never listen to that song without tearing up. I try to avoid hearing Adele all together now.
sweetkiwi Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 My ex wrote songs about me too. Dont read into it. You'll make yourself crazy trying to "understand".
crashvector Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 I have composed music since I was about 10 years old. I wrote plenty of songs for my ex fiance, some at her request as presents for her. Most of the music I write however, is classical music and has no words, but it's pretty clear what the point of the song is if you listen to it.
amaysngrace Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 My exBF is a songwriter too. He has written so many songs for me because we were together a long time. He also double majored in Spanish so he's fluent. He use to bring his guitar to the beach sometimes and sing songs busting on people who were walking by but they didn't know it because he was singing about them in Spanish and they'd just look over and smile.
flitzanu Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 Ok, so my ex is totally NC. He dumped me. NC has been his way of moving on. Blah, blah. BUT he keeps writing songs. He never sends them to me or anything of course, but we go on the same songwriting forums (as I write songs too) and so I see when he does a new song. The first one he did back in early December was called “Remember” and it was the first I knew that he’d left me the week before. Cause he went NC without even telling me he’d left. The first words were “It’s done”. God, that killed me. The rest was along the lines of “It’s done…but if we remember…we will have our time again. Time is not our friend, but if we remember, it will come around again.” The next song he did was between Christmas and New Year, and was called “Meet Me In Your Dreams”. About meeting me in a dream as this is the only way we can be together now. Meeting on the “second landing” (meaning our second chance, our next / future life when we can try to be together again). Now he’s just done a new song called “A Heart Like Mine”. It’s about how just beneath the surface is cold steel and it’s there to deal with the hurt and pain of having a heart like his. “Old feelings lie like dirt in a heart like mine.” Hmm. I wonder what that means. Dirt? I don’t think he meant that in a bad way. lol. Maybe they lie like dirt because they’re…dormant…just lying there…doing nothing. Or they’re the basis of…something. The first layer. Who knows. Another line was “Hold onto that feeling…cause that’s the sign. Cause there will be healing…just in time.” Yeah. “Hold still and hold onto that feeling…it’s a cheap thrill but you’re resigned…to the deep chill that comes from dealing with a heart like mine.” Yeah. “Old proof lies just beneath the surface of an old field in the folds of time, but cold truth is buried deep in a heart like mine.” So…yeah. It’s total NC but…there are still songs. if you're so caught up in the meaning and that they must be about you, why don't you just ask him?
LostGirl11 Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 if you're so caught up in the meaning and that they must be about you, why don't you just ask him? Because he is giving her the silent treatment. You said he is married right? Seriously, this just isn't worth it. Leave him be, move on.
flitzanu Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 Because he is giving her the silent treatment. You said he is married right? Seriously, this just isn't worth it. Leave him be, move on. ohhh yes he's doing NC. maybe he's writing songs about another ex that he's talking to. if i dumped a girl and was ignoring her, i don't think i'd write songs about her. doesn't make sense from a guy's perspective.
Survivor12 Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 My exH (11 yrs) is a songwriter. Several months ago, he posted a link on FB to a new song he'd written. It was definitely a breakup song so I assumed that he and his gf (7 yrs or so) had broken up. I later found out that they were still together and the song was written after a good friend's wife had asked his friend for a divorce. He was simply channeling his friend's emotions into a song. Sometimes inspiration comes from unexpected sources. If I were you, I wouldn't listen to any more of his work until you've had time to heal. Note to whoever wrote the NC guide: You many want to include songs, poems, videos, & letters as things to avoid.
Author stevie_23 Posted January 18, 2013 Author Posted January 18, 2013 Mmmm, yes indeed. Songs and music and poems and whatever other creative outlet SHOULD be included in the NC rules, definitely. I've been writing songs about him too though. lol. Directed straight AT him but I don't know if he's been listening or has seen them or is avoiding them because it's too painful. I think it might be. My songs so far have been "Shattered Glass" (saying I am shattered and broken and he did it), "Yesterday's News" (saying he thinks I'm old news now), and the most recent one, "The Corner of the Bed" which is about how dark things feel for me but this one isn't so much about him anymore, which I find is good. Sloooowly moving on maybe. I just still want to know what he's thinking...clearly he's hardened his heart now into "cold steel" to deal with this hard, painful time...it sounds as if he feels he's behaved coldly towards me and also perhaps his wife. And the truth is he can't be with me (which I already knew) and that maybe he feels his heart is bad or something...cold...I don't know. And yes, you do drive yourself insane trying to analyse lyrics. Even my OWN lyrics are cryptic mixed in with literal stuff and I don't mean 100% of them.
Survivor12 Posted January 18, 2013 Posted January 18, 2013 I think that expressing your pain through your songs is a good outlet...and, you never know, maybe you'll be as successful as Taylor Swift! Hang in there...
Author stevie_23 Posted January 18, 2013 Author Posted January 18, 2013 HAHA! One can only dream!! He's actually been my muse and inspiration for ALL my songs since very early 2011. That's a LOT of songs!
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