BiancaLDN Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 (edited) I had met a woman online in October of last year, and we began talking...swapped numbers, etc. She told me she had a partner (who was a guy) and I was OK with it - it was all just banter, flirting etc. She also told me she had a 5 month old baby. We continued talking, texting every day and as I thought might happen, feelings developed on both sides. We slept together once, and I think after that things just got a bit deeper. For me, anyway. It was hardly the best two months of my life - although I was grateful and loved the attention, she was very jealous and would often look at my Twitter page and construct stories behind a random tweet or berate me for not replying to her on Whatsapp quickly enough. It got to the stage where I had to think about what I was tweeting, and who I was tweeting. I could never really trust her, either. As she was cheating on her partner of seven years with me. I was often paranoid that she was even cheating on me! I did fall in love with her, despite all this. She seemed to be a caring person who just had a whole bunch of issues. Just before Christmas, she decided that she didn't want to continue, for the sake of her son and his stability. She didn't want the partner to find out, and lose her home etc. I took this badly and we had a lot of arguments. At one point even threatening to tell her partner (we work for the same DIY chain and I said I could easily find him and tell him) perhaps that was wrong, but it WAS an argument and things were said to me, too. After I'd said that to her, she became different toward me, didn't trust me anymore. We argued many more times, and although I never insulted her with the typical name calling/swearing, she was still insulted by what I said. For instance, she tried to accuse me of taking advantage of her to which I said something like, "you're a grown woman, you cheated on your boyfriend, YOU". She took that as me being nasty, which I don't think it was. I was only ever truthful/defended myself with her. I was never nasty. She told me a couple of days ago that she no longer loves me, and never will again. In no uncertain terms. Because of the things I said to her. Why then, am I still so certain that she is 'The One', that I could win her back? I want to move on, not be stuck in this limbo and hope state. I don't think I do love her but I just can't stop thinking of ways to get her back. It's driving me mad!! has anyone else ever experienced this? I'm sorry for the long post, but this is the first day me and her haven't spoken and I'm just a little bit lost, tbh. Also, this is the first day of a self-imposed NC, and she has told her boyfriend, they are no longer together. And I feel gutted because I wanted to be with her, now the way is clear I can't. Edited January 16, 2013 by BiancaLDN
OJ loved Nicole Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 I know exactly what you have here...... take 2 pieces of bread, Swiss cheese, some mayo, and plop a large amount of sh*t between all of it-- tada, your sh*t sandwich!! To sum up: 2 months "together" (not really together. She had a BF the whole time, she cheated on him w/you), she displayed jealous/psyscho behaviour from the beginning (and again you're not even the BF), constant fighting, mistrust, on and on and on. I'm sorry for your pain, but it could've been worse.... You could've spend 3 months "together" instead of 2.
Author BiancaLDN Posted January 16, 2013 Author Posted January 16, 2013 I know exactly what you have here...... take 2 pieces of bread, Swiss cheese, some mayo, and plop a large amount of sh*t between all of it-- tada, your sh*t sandwich!! To sum up: 2 months "together" (not really together. She had a BF the whole time, she cheated on him w/you), she displayed jealous/psyscho behaviour from the beginning (and again you're not even the BF), constant fighting, mistrust, on and on and on. I'm sorry for your pain, but it could've been worse.... You could've spend 3 months "together" instead of 2. No, don't apologise - you're absolutely right!! I think I'll print screen your response, and put it as my iPhone lock screen...
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