iceblue Posted August 22, 2004 Posted August 22, 2004 basically, i met this girl thro a mate almost a year ago, we neva really got on well for about 2 months and then suddenly we used 2 txt/call/see each otha every single day we were unseperable, we did everything 2gether, i used 2 see her everyday, all day almost every1 thought we were going out with each other for months adn months, no1 could understand that we were just mates but every1 still thought we wud make a great couple i have neva had sex with her, i hav kissed her a few times in the past she neva used 2 hav ajob or nothin, i had a job n supported her alot wen she needed it over the last 1 month she has got herself a job and afforded 2 get a car since then she has spent alot less time with me, talks 2 her old friends again and is basically not payin me hardly any attention that i really am wishing i really miss her, and i miss the old days wen it was just me and her she calls other people wen we r 2gether, tells me that shes meetin other male friends later in the day little does she kno that it really really makes me cry inside i miss her so much, i just wish she was my best friend again i fancy her, i even loved her at one point, she knows this but has always told every1 n me that we r just mates n nothin more 2nite, we spoke on the internet for a bit, she neva sed bye, i txt her 2 say wat she was doin but no reply i went 2 a club n i saw her with her other mates it was 1 of the hardest things i've had 2 look at she hardly paid any attention 2 me all night, i just left on my own i think our friendship is comin 2 an end it's so hard 2 accept that after all we've been through 2gether i can't understand why she doesn't feel the same for me, my heart crys for her 2 pay me attention and spend time with me like the old days, but she just talks 2 me different now, doesn't giv me hugs and is basically lookin alot happier with other mates i feel like i wanna cry at this moment in time there is nothin i can do 2 change this and it is going 2 take me along time to accept the fact that i hav lost a best mate and sum1 i cud of married :-( sorry 2 go on
Pocky Posted August 22, 2004 Posted August 22, 2004 there is nothin i can do 2 change this and it is going 2 take me along time to accept the fact that i hav lost a best mate and sum1 i cud of married :-( But you'll love again. And when you do you'll look back and realize that you learned from this experience and it helped prepare you for the relationship that was meant to be. It hurts. We've all been there. There's nothing anyone can say to take the pain away and you just have to work through it. Let it out.
Author iceblue Posted August 22, 2004 Author Posted August 22, 2004 i'm feelin abit my better 2day to be honest with u, that was the first person i've actually found myself loving and i'm 21 i kno that seems bad but it's the truth, i never used 2 b interested in any form of relationship bcos i didn't really mix with females i did hav a massive crush on her, and it kinda hit me in a big way bcos i never looked at her like that until 1day wen i woke up and thought "god, i'm in love with this girl, she drives me crazy" over the past 6 months i became very sad and depressed wen she didn't call, i found myself lookin forward 2 her callin me or sendin me a text - shes very popular with the blokes, so i've always been in competition if u kno wat i mean, it was the best feelin in the world 2 kno that she made an effort 2 call me i haven't heard from her all day 2day, and i've sent her a text message and prank called her twice i'm going 2 join the army anyway in a month or two, i don't have much left were i live apart from my family i just hope she remembers the good times and that she feels abit guilty for ignoring me and puttin me through alot of pain and another thing... on a bad day (i mean wen i'm really down and depressed) she can make me smile the thing is she never saw me depressed and sad bcos she wud always make me happy and smile wen i was around her or on the phone - i wonder if she wud think twice if she saw me wen i'm sat in my room all alone thinkin about her and crying
simplybrill Posted August 22, 2004 Posted August 22, 2004 aww it makes me smile to read your posts because you remind me so much of a guy I used to know very well in England. We still keep in touch, although he has a girlfriend now and Im very respectful of that, because at one point I was in your shoes, very much in love and looking forward to every gesture of love that he sent my way, where even a text would make my whole day better, because I knew he was thinking about me- (all this was way before he met this girl though). We kind of grew up together and now that we're 20 both going to be 21 soon, its nice that we can talk to each other and still have a connection, although its not as strong, and we cant read each others minds like we used to, its still there. The moral of my story is...you will move on, and your heart will grow less attatched to her as time goes on, because you will remember every time she ignored you, disrespected you, etc. You will be angry, and then at times you will just miss her very much, but when it comes down to it, at the base of your relationship, is a great friendship, and that will always be there in some way. Good luck in life and love, and I hope I was some help.
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