sharkbite Posted January 15, 2013 Posted January 15, 2013 After a breakup I think we can all agree that we have our good days and bad days, or maybe just good hours and bad hours. The bad times usually come when loneliness sets in. I know not to contact her (my ex). Everyday I wake up and I think about her. We went out for 8 months during that time we took a few trips and told eachother " I love you". She became distant and I brought it up to her and told me she loves me but when she thinks about the future "doesn't see us together" the relationship and chemistry seemed incredible from my standpoint but for me it hurts so bad to be so sure of someone that is so unsure of you. It makes you question that if a relationship like that fails, what does it take for one to prevail, I got so sick of people saying "It was a mutual break up" well.....apparently all my breakups have been "mutual" but how mutual are they when I'm a 100 percent committed but refuse to stand there wishing the person I truly love and would do anything for changes their thoughts about the relationship, we break up "i start the conversation" and i ask the question "you want to break up?" and she says "yes, probably going to be the biggest mistake of my life"..............mutual is bullsh*t. My heart is broken, and I'm trying to resist falling back into my old style of drinking my sorrows away. My heart is too big for my own good at times, I tried to play the relationship perfectly, giving her space, taking time for myself. Now all i can do is try to better my personal self.........So angry..........So sad......Wish a bag of hope would fall into my lap............or my ex with an undying love for me.........
arrowfoot Posted January 15, 2013 Posted January 15, 2013 "It makes you question that if a relationship like that fails, what does it take for one to prevail..." This. Hoplessness is the worst. I think that if there was some way to know for sure that there is someone out there who would makes us feel as happy, or even more so, than our ex, it might be easier to let go. I feel your pain. It'll go away someday...just have to be patient.
Author sharkbite Posted January 15, 2013 Author Posted January 15, 2013 thats true, and i can appreciate that. Thank you. I just tell myself "i've been here before, I've told myself how heartbroke is worse than any other type of pain, but it will subside eventually. Also, i say the breakup conversation happened already........I survived, so i already survived the break up. This is just the aftermath and the necessary feelings I have to experience to understand the good moments, we have to experience the bad. It wouldn't be so great to have someone to share those memorable times with if we were never going to feel pain like this when we're alone, just can't take any flood of emotions without recognizing how powerful they really are. let people be, be a great person, follow your morals and values, hold onto hope, and the only value that matters is what you can place on yourself is that of which you hold of yourself and to yourself. I have no idea where I came up with any of these words........they just flowed haha
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