cavalier99 Posted January 15, 2013 Posted January 15, 2013 I feel like plowing some young hottie! Might be hard to pull off on a Tuesday. Hmmm. Maybe there is a Latino night in the city. I can use my Spanish that i learned while living in South America 4 years to my advantage. Minimum I get to flirt and be social. Ridin solo! 1
Author MyAngel Posted January 15, 2013 Author Posted January 15, 2013 Thanks. It is better to cry. Get it all out. Preferably at home. Lol. I even made an effort to force myself to cry early on, relive everything good and tell myself IT IS OVER, and totally lean into the pain. You'll find after a while it gets tougher to keep up the crying and you just give up. Yes this is what I feel sometimes too! I have always been a big sook but sometimes it's like I can't even be bothered to cry over this anymore you know? I feel stronger when I don't but I don't beat myself up if I do cry. 1
Love Bites Posted January 15, 2013 Posted January 15, 2013 It sucks. My ex is still with the person who is treating her like crap. I don't think she is coming back. I can't stop looking at her twitter.
Author MyAngel Posted January 15, 2013 Author Posted January 15, 2013 I'm feeling pretty good today, as predicted I am able to judge my mood cycles it seems so when I am in a down spiral I will keep in mind that it won't last. I have been thinking a lot about the negative aspects of the relationship and all the times I was hurt. I loved her so much but I also got hurt a lot. I would never have done anything to hurt her. I miss her a lot but today is more of a nostalgic feel, rather than total devastation. Can't wait to get over this once and for all. 3
Amelie1980 Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 Calmer.... Just very sad. Able to go to work but can't do anything else. just want to lie in bed & curl up.
Author MyAngel Posted January 16, 2013 Author Posted January 16, 2013 Amelie, I understand that. This is the most lethargic month I've ever had. I know I should go and do something like clean out some of my house but this depression leaves me so down that I can't summon up the energy.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 Mornings are crappy. I miss him. More and more. Knowing that for him each day that goes by is our memories fading. more relief for him that I'm not bugging him. He can do whatever he wants. Weird how te littlest things get to me. Just little memories like his favorite tea... Movies ... What he would be saying right now.... sometimes I tell myself to get it together. Live without him. Today isn't the day... The emptiness is building up. I don't want to come crashing down again... 2
brokenheartedgal Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 I'm brokenhearted. I broke up with my ex awhile ago 'cause we had some complications. And it seemed as if he was happy that I broke up with him. He was like, "Don't be sad now. Bye :)" He's back together with his ex right now and I don't even know what to feel. This is just soooo sad!!
Minadee Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 (edited) I so want to send this the girl my ex left me for.. "soo, you're a virgin and want to lose your big v plates to the guy who cheated on you with his ex for three months (even though you wern't even together?) got her pregnant and then left her in the dirt and valued your opinion over his ex of three years? WOW GURL U SO SMART. You are truley an idiotic little girl and i'm sorry that you're going to learn that lesson the hard way." But, i'm not that sort of person. Guess i'm just fluctuating between feeling just fine, super depressed and shaking with rage today. Merh. Edited January 16, 2013 by Minadee
geegirl Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 I so want to send this the girl my ex left me for.. "soo, you're a virgin and want to lose your big v plates to the guy who cheated on you with his ex for three months (even though you wern't even together?) got her pregnant and then left her in the dirt and valued your opinion over his ex of three years? WOW GURL U SO SMART. You are truley an idiotic little girl and i'm sorry that you're going to learn that lesson the hard way." But, i'm not that sort of person. Guess i'm just fluctuating between feeling just fine, super depressed and shaking with rage today. Merh. I'm going to be as gentle as possible. You call her an idiotic girl for wanting to be with this loser of a man, but you yourself pine and want this cheater. Neither of you are making smart decisions. I know you are angry but your anger should be directed at him. Not her. 1
NoMoreJerks Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 I'm going to be as gentle as possible. You call her an idiotic girl for wanting to be with this loser of a man, but you yourself pine and want this cheater. Neither of you are making smart decisions. I know you are angry but your anger should be directed at him. Not her. This........
Gaby Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 Feeling, a bit down. i'll be going to the gym later on see if i can run all my anger/sadness out of my system. I've worked out before and it really helps guys, also taking kick box class really helpful and fun. 1
ScienceGal Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 I feel like I could implode at any moment, and I'd gladly do so if it would take my exhaustion, saddness and headache away. 3 hours of sleep is not enough!
Victoria Lake Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 It's almost 8 PM here, and I'm feeling a little down. Yesterday I was super optimistic, I went to a movie and had fun with a friend. I wanted to take a nap this afternoon, but he kept popping up in my mind right before falling asleep. I'm trying to keep myself busy - and trust me, I have plenty of stuff to do - but I just feel sad...
NoMoreJerks Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 I didn't sleep well. COuldn't sleep until 3am last night/this morning, and woke up very late as well (11am), and i really hate waking up late, as it makes me so demotivated and lazy.. it just feels like half my day is gone, so what's the point of doing anything today.... by the time i get started, it will be evening.. oh well... also, have a headache.. overall, feeling meh, especially about the ex and getting a breadcrumb from him.
jovan Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 Am slowly accepting end of my relationship, and am doing horrible. I miss her but there's no going back. Am not angry or anything. Am just sad that things didn't go the way I planed.
Harradin Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 I miss her terribly. I'm just curious to know why she would stay with someone who manipulated her, and yet I assume she wants nothing to do with me, considering I treated her like gold and was there for her when she needed it. It doesn't make sense. Today especially, been wishing that I should have kicked the s*** out of the "friend," even though it would have ruined my life with a criminal record.
Author MyAngel Posted January 16, 2013 Author Posted January 16, 2013 Starting to realise some things now. Remembering things she has told me in the past. Putting two and two together. I am learning more about her than ever now that she has gone. Keeping this attitude will help me get over it once and for all, and not moping on the good times. Surely she must realise how much she has hurt me. How much it would have broken my heart and made me cry. I'm so alone in this and the or person I thought would be there for me has vanished. I feel I have been utterly used.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 16, 2013 Posted January 16, 2013 Feeling very confused and lost at this moment. Woke up not as bad as other days but still the sense of emptiness inside. I miss him. I still do but there is a part of me that resents him because of his family. Looking forward to seeing my friend today! She just got her license so we are goin out. She's married now and lives quite far. It's so weird. She met him 7 months and got married. At age of 20! It was so fast. People keep saying they won't last. I think thy will. They compliment EACHOTHER well and both calm. I like this thread. I can write anything that comes to mind and doesn't have to make sense. And no one can have a go at me for typing "u" instead of "you". I guess a lot of this is to spill my stress out. People r selfish as I learnt. But I would never directly hurt someone. Don't know how people do that. 1
Author MyAngel Posted January 17, 2013 Author Posted January 17, 2013 Failed first love, some people are just plain selfish. They go through life thinking only of themselves. When you remind yourself of that, things seem to make sense. Enjoy your time with your friend!
stevie_23 Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 Well, I’ve been feeling much better lately. A combination of time (6 weeks tomorrow since he left me) and anti-depressants I started this week. It’s still early days, but I am ok. I’ve gotten over the initial shock, the withdrawal symptoms of letting him go and all our shared in-jokes, intimacy and routines, and now I’m only really a bit concerned that one day I’ll wake up and think, although I am ok, “Is this it? Is this all there will be from now on? Just…ok”? No actual joy, excitement, feelings of being alive? Just…ok? I was feeling fairly neutral today but now this Evanescence song is on the radio here at work…that sad one. I don’t even know what it’s called but it’s always made me sad, even long before any of my current experience ever happened. *sigh*
Louboutin_lover Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 Today I feel like I have a hole in my heart and hurt by him. I know I ended it but it still hurts (it hurts that he doesn't seem fazed by this which should confirm I made the right decision but still hurts like hell) I keep thinking every email or phone call he makes is him being dodgy behind my back. I now feel like I want to cry and an going to end up old and alone and I keep wondering what is wrong with me, and after all the strength I built up after my divorce its gone and I shouldn't have let him in. I also miss how we used to be he used to be loving and jealous and now is distant and doesn't seem to care
Missing Him Posted January 17, 2013 Posted January 17, 2013 I'm feeling really angry and resentful today. I've been feeling okay, but I think the no contact is slowly forcing me to work through a lot of feelings. My birthday is coming up and I've been thinking about how angry I am at him for not coming through for me on my birthday. Last year, I went all out for him on his and really put my heart into making sure he had a good birthday. I want to call him and yell at him and tell him off about how I feel, but I know that will only make me feel worse. It's sad but, I just want my birthday to come and go and take these feelings with it.
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