jovan Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 Its a 4th week since were not together, and I think that I even feel worse. I miss her so much that I cant breathe. I want her desperately, but its over and nothing I can do about it. That's 5 years of my life am not getting back. I feel horrible, she left me, she broke us apart in one day, and I know I don't deserve that. But I still want her back, and I don't want to want her back. Last time I called her we said our goodbye's, and were not going to hear from each other anymore. Am staying strong and am not calling her, but I feel like my body can't take it anymore. God why is this happening to me :,(
FailedFirstLove Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 It's not just you I never even had a goodbye.... I want him back to. Even though I don't want him back. I don't want to miss him and think about him. Constant pain cause of him leaving. it's hard to deal with. Sometimes I just cry and scream into the pillow. Sometimes to just ease the pain because I can't handle it I allow myself false hope. Thinking one day he will call and tell me his still in love with me and misses me more than ever. Only thing that kept me sane. Even if I know deep down his probably moved on. Your not alone. Dot ever think you are. There are always people going through loss. Whether its break ups or death.
cavalier99 Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 Its a 4th week since were not together, and I think that I even feel worse. I miss her so much that I cant breathe. I want her desperately, but its over and nothing I can do about it. That's 5 years of my life am not getting back. I feel horrible, she left me, she broke us apart in one day, and I know I don't deserve that. But I still want her back, and I don't want to want her back. Last time I called her we said our goodbye's, and were not going to hear from each other anymore. Am staying strong and am not calling her, but I feel like my body can't take it anymore. God why is this happening to me :,( Yo Jovan. Hang in there man. I does get better. I still had a good cry a 6 weeks post BU after 8 year relationship and I'm no pussy. This is normal. Try to cry and mourn and get it all out..it helps It really sucks early on. 4 weeks isn't that long after so much time. Stay NC and fight thru it. That is all i can say. You will eventually start to feel better even though you cant see that now. Sh*t. I felt like i was going crazy for a bit. Normal stuff.
brokengirl3 Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 i know the feeling!Im there!Jovan dear you should do things to keep yourelf busy and not thinking of her!I know how hard is it but we will do it!You deserve better than someone who dumped you and broke your heart right?You are such a nice person!
Inviv_girl Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 Ah hang in there, Im 4,5 months and cry still. Thinking of him everyday, damn good stuffs of him always stuck in mind! i want to remember how a$$h0l# he is that he hurt me so bad but still the good stuffs about our relationship always remembered me the good thing about him. One moment I feel I hate him and ready to move on, another time Im sad and depress, missing him so much and want him back! weird me huh?! You are not alone, this feeling is normal and I believe we all here in LS feeling the same, I am here for you if you want to scream or vent out anything.
mutant Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 I am right there with you. Today has been extremely shi**y, so much that i couldn't meet some personal deadlines. I have tried every possible post break-up strategy but nothing works wonders. Just like you, It's been 4 weeks of absolute NC from me. Now that we don't want them back all we can do is better ourselves and concentrate on the future. This will definitely come to pass.
Author jovan Posted January 14, 2013 Author Posted January 14, 2013 (edited) I love her so much, she meant the world for me. Everything I did, I did case of her. And nothing seemed too hard as long as she was happy. Am crying for hours now, just lying there on her side of the bed. I used to tell her how much I loved her and hold her for the whole night in my arms. One night before we broke up she had a nightmare and it woke me up case she was crying. I picked her up in my arms, and told her not worry, case am right here, and ill always will be. But now I cant, case she doesn't need me there, and that's okay, case i don't mind as long as she is happy I know I will be. I wish her the best and not mad. I just miss her and its tearing me apart. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2pwT2wiZsg0 Edited January 14, 2013 by jovan
cavalier99 Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 Im with you man. Its tough. Good that your crying. Get it all out everything. How you gave it your all..how much you loved her and tell your self IT IS OVER as you cry. Then stop... and stand up with you head held up high!
cavalier99 Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 Great song..but id stop listening to that unless you want to feel like crap.
Author jovan Posted January 14, 2013 Author Posted January 14, 2013 She moved on but i can't Can't or won't? I do want to. And now I even feel little bit better. Am holding my head up and staying strong. Ty all for the support, I couldn't do it without you
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