Highschool Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 (edited) Well if anyone of you guys remember me... here's an update on everything. Still upset, but it's a bit dulled at least, now. I'm editing and bolding parts so you guys and girls can skip through if you want. ... Just need to write down all my feelings and thoughts, it's long. :[ --- She continued completely avoiding me again starting the next Monday after the first drama-week (the one where she had just started randomly ignoring me without explanation on the Thursday, but earlier in the week everything was going well). I waited a week to send a text to her, which was kinda long and explained everything from my point of view. She didn't respond, the next day I sent her a tiny followup text. I waited another week and a half, was pretty upset and confused at this point since I was still being avoided completely and sent her a long email of me being confused about the past few weeks. She didn't respond again... Two days later, I tried to talk to her before class. This upset me... I didn't get the chance to say anything, which seems to be a common theme with everything here. She said something along the lines of "Leave me alone! I don't want to talk, you've been (or you are) CREEPY as ****, people don't send that long of messages". She never swears and I've never been called creepy before. That hurt... Right after I think I got a pained expression on my face, lol. I asked why, she said "After class we'll go to guidance and talk there. Yeah." acting all pissed off at me and pretty bitchy, honestly.... After class I went to guidance, she was already there and sitting down in a chair. She said "I need to talk to the guidance counselor alone, you can go eat your lunch". I ending up just talking about this with friends at lunch since I was kinda upset lol. ----- The next day (Thursday before Christmas break) the VP and Principal call me down (female VP and male VP), and they talk to me about this for like 40 minutes. They started it off with "It's not that she doesn't like you. [Name] just came to guidance concerned...". They said that they had to legally followup with stuff like this so they talked to her. I explained my side of things, they seemed like they completely understood my situation, assured me that I did nothing wrong at all and that I haven't been creepy, but advised me that it would be best to just delete her number and everything, which I had already done the day before after she got me all upset. I had just wanted her to stop ignoring me and try to remain friends... She continued to ignore me after we had a bitch-me-out session the first time. Thing is we agreed to stay friends at the end of that (and after I apologized for nothing, but I still did lol), and I still don't get what she was initially upset about so much. >.> ------ I started feeling better during the two week Christmas break, but I came back to school and she's avoiding me still and I feel upset again. ------- Couple of things to help you guys/what I'm confused about: 1. I never touched or attempted to touch her, said anything sexual/innappropriate to her, threatened her or said anything rude to her at all. I've acted... pretty mature honestly. 2. I sent her those two texts over 2 days, and then sent her an email a week later. I don't consider that unreasonably crazy.. I don't follow her around or anything, I'm not some random stalker guy. Brings us into #3... 3. We've been friends for a couple of years, I usually dance with her at dances for the night at all of them. She had just been telling me how great of a friend I was a week or so before the drama, and how easy I am to talk to (unlike most other guys, she had said). What I'm upset about is that if she thought highly of me as a friend, why has she just cut off all contact like this without explanation or anything? 4. Everything was going pretty well before she randomly started ignoring me without an explanation. She didn't reject me when I had brought up my feelings and it seemed to be going well, then BAM, ignore-completely a few days later. Possible explanation? -Her parents really push her, she's a crazy extracurricular activity person and INSANE overachiever, but is always stressed. Her parents probably don't want her getting involved with any guys (hell, she probably doesn't want to either), hence the fact that I was her ONLY guy friend outside of guys she just talked to in-class. She also never wears makeup in school (only at dances) and always asked me about girls and if they need to wear makeup to be attractive, stuff like that. She has a 4th dan in taekwondo and is 17, takes a TON of art lessons, piano, and has a mid-90s average in school. ------- So yeah... I mean we are in grade 12 and are preparing for university so there's added stress there, but I have never seen her act like this to anyone, and I find the whole ignore-suddenly-without-explanation immature. ------- The problem is I have a huge project to do in computer science (the class I share with her) next week and I find it almost impossible to work on the thing because she's been in all my comp sci classes and usually helps me, and when I get stuck I get all upset because I start thinking about this all. ------- Her girlfriends are friends of mine, and their attitude towards me hasn't changed at all (which is good!) so that's a bit confusing too. --- Things I'm upset about/problems here: 1. I HATE when people I care about are upset at me, it REALLY bothers me. 2. After what she said and after she escalated the thing to guidance and everything, I feel like some sort of criminal-stalker although I know I didn't do anything wrong!!! Everyone tells me I didn't do anything wrong and I was fairly mature about it all, but inside I still feel like **** because the bottom line is that SHE thinks that's I'm horrible or something. 3. I can't work on this damn comp sci project, I'm finding it impossible to concentrate without being upset. 4. She won't be in any of my classes after the exams for this semester, but I'm still going to see her around with her friends and crap... If she's in a group with her girlfriends I can't chill with them because she's there, and I feel like I might never get any closure here. ---- I'm not going to be talking to her at ALL unless she brings stuff up to me first (resisting any urges to try to contact her). She's been stressed about her own comp sci project and has been absent a lot from school during this drama thing, and I think she's upset. She also gives me these damn looks every so often which upset me. I get a feeling that someone's watching me and she'll just be looking at me with this weird sad/sympathetic smile thing going on. It's annoying. ----- That's it, I'm sorry it's so long but I really needed to vent. This is SO much longer than anything I ever sent to her or anyone, LOL. Edited January 13, 2013 by Highschool
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