Atamawood Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 (edited) I was going to post this on facebook. We were together two years, she left December 2nd, 2012. It been very loose contact, I've been doing okay till I found the first V-day card and letter she wrote... Its been pretty civil between us, but I almost just broke that when I almost posted this on facebook. Why did you cheat on me? Why did you lie for so long? Why did you promise me the earth only to stab me in the back. Why when I needed you the most, did you finally decide it was your time to leave. If it was truly so horrible, and you were so unhappy, why couldn't you have just left a long time ago, spared me the ****ing pain. No instead you just feel you can wreck my whole ****ing world, then just bounce out and leave me to pick up the ****ing pieces! And yet even after all this, I still can only think about you, and I miss you so god damn much that it kills me. I hate you. Edited January 13, 2013 by Atamawood
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 I was going to post this on facebook. We were together two years, she left December 2nd, 2012. It been very loose contact, I've been doing okay till I found the first V-day card and letter she wrote... Its been pretty civil between us, but I almost just broke that when I almost posted this on facebook. Why did you cheat on me? Why did you lie for so long? Why did you promise me the earth only to stab me in the back. Why when I needed you the most, did you finally decide it was your time to leave. If it was truly so horrible, and you were so unhappy, why couldn't you have just left a long time ago, spared me the ****ing pain. No instead you just feel you can wreck my whole ****ing world, then just bounce out and leave me to pick up the ****ing pieces! And yet even after all this, I still can only think about you, and I miss you so god damn much that it kills me. I hate you. After all this you hate that you still love him right? I'm the same. Suffering because of one persons act.
Author Atamawood Posted January 13, 2013 Author Posted January 13, 2013 Her* and yes, it sucks! Ugh. I don't think they realize just how much pain they cause, and then just to leave and quickly jump into some relationship the next day. Ouch. 1
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 Her* and yes, it sucks! Ugh. I don't think they realize just how much pain they cause, and then just to leave and quickly jump into some relationship the next day. Ouch. Oh sorry Lols. I'm trying so hard to deal with the pain. But I'm struggling even after a month... And yet they get away with it. Happiness on other people's misery. There's no justice in life. I'm waiting an waiting for it to get better. But it's not... Knowing they have moved on hurts like FARK!!
Author Atamawood Posted January 13, 2013 Author Posted January 13, 2013 I'm a little over a month in as well, and yeah, at times it doesn't seem like its getting any better.
MyAngel Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 Good that you didn't post it on fb. When you feel those urges, post here instead. I'm sorry she has treated you so badly. Awful
Author Atamawood Posted January 13, 2013 Author Posted January 13, 2013 I know, I would have regretted it bad, but damn, it hurts, I was doing so well, but now I'm just a wreck again.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 I know, I would have regretted it bad, but damn, it hurts, I was doing so well, but now I'm just a wreck again. Do you still have her on fb? Hmmm I think ur hurting URSELF more if u do. U don't want to know what she's doing especially now that she has another guy 1
Author Atamawood Posted January 13, 2013 Author Posted January 13, 2013 Yes I do, I had her deleted for about two weeks, then just recently readded her!? I don't know why... Its really discouraging, now I feel if I unfriend her again I'll just appear weak or something, I'm not weak, not by any means, I lost both my mother and her within a two week period and I'm still kicking. I've been seeing the stuff she posts on facebook and it doesn't hurt so much if at all, but the letters I found from the beginning that were of course directed for me certainly did.
Author Atamawood Posted January 13, 2013 Author Posted January 13, 2013 OF course then again I have been keeping extremely busy, I've changed jobs since the BU and rerolled in school, so maybe I've just been keeping myself distracted well. Not sure.
LostOne1 Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 Well I'm at 2 months NC and 6 months BU and it's still tough at times. It's hard to know they love us so much and show us it and then BOOM one day they just STOP and they find someone else and you just stare thinking it's a dream or a test or even a really bad rude joke. But then you realize it's all real and you can't do **** but watch it all unfold. Man I got respect for you. I lost my grandma to a stroke and then a month later my ex left me. It broke me down badly man... I never have been broken that bad before. I had to withdraw from school then too as I was ill and then it was just tough at home. I didn't know how to keep it civil and just begged. I was scared she would leave me for another guy since there was some guy always hanging with her at her place. So I give you props for making it through. I know I did too, but it's been by far the MOST difficult thing I've ever had to get through in my life. I've just started a new career too at a new school. Sadly it's the same school as my ex, but it's for my career and that's how it is now. Tough to know she doesn't care about me or not enough to even say anything. Even if she said sorry for what she did.. I'd be okay with it. But to know she acts like she's better than me.. just makes me want to hate her for ever trusting her and meeting her. I wish I never had asked her out and just kept quiet. I wouldn't be feeling this today if I had kept my distance from her. 1
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 I don't get that as well... Loved you for so long (mine 4 years) and the next act like ur no one to them... completely happy without u. Like nothing happened... Like breakup didnt occur. No lost to them what so ever. How can one person change so fast. From I love you. To who are you. 1
LostOne1 Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 I don't get that as well... Loved you for so long (mine 4 years) and the next act like ur no one to them... completely happy without u. Like nothing happened... Like breakup didnt occur. No lost to them what so ever. How can one person change so fast. From I love you. To who are you. mine was 3 yrs. She BU the week of our 3rd anniversary. My guess is my ex faked it. She FAKED she was happy.. and I don't think she was.. I think she was hurt that she was letting me go. But she was feeling good too. I think they change so fast, because we don't see it. In my ex's case, I think she had a good week away from me to really let me go and think over and over about cutting ties with me. She told me she was looking at our vacation pictures while we were Broken up. I guess she was just distancing her self slowly and maybe she faked it the first few weeks trying to tell herself it was over. And over time it felt natural to her and so it was easier for her. While I just sat there and waited hoping her feelings would come back and she would reconsider the decision. But it never happened she kept with the it's over between us now routine and eventually I had no choice but to go NC. I mean I was killing myself slowly begging her and waiting and wondering and it wasn't worth it. It was like torturing a person, who has no legs and arms and you're being watched and laughed at. Now it still hurts in fact after 6 months I haven't seen my ex I crashed into her at my new school crazy enough on the VERY FIRST day of classes LOL. How about that... tough man.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 mine was 3 yrs. She BU the week of our 3rd anniversary. My guess is my ex faked it. She FAKED she was happy.. and I don't think she was.. I think she was hurt that she was letting me go. But she was feeling good too. I think they change so fast, because we don't see it. In my ex's case, I think she had a good week away from me to really let me go and think over and over about cutting ties with me. She told me she was looking at our vacation pictures while we were Broken up. I guess she was just distancing her self slowly and maybe she faked it the first few weeks trying to tell herself it was over. And over time it felt natural to her and so it was easier for her. While I just sat there and waited hoping her feelings would come back and she would reconsider the decision. But it never happened she kept with the it's over between us now routine and eventually I had no choice but to go NC. I mean I was killing myself slowly begging her and waiting and wondering and it wasn't worth it. It was like torturing a person, who has no legs and arms and you're being watched and laughed at. Now it still hurts in fact after 6 months I haven't seen my ex I crashed into her at my new school crazy enough on the VERY FIRST day of classes LOL. How about that... tough man. go find a hot girl to walk into class with nowwww!!!!! LOL best time to revenge! argh mine sounds abit like yours... he went up to help his family... and called me 2 hours before his flight back he wasnt coming back... he had 10 days to thik about it and he said he took his time thinking... but during all the time he LIED and told me his coming back no matter what.... of course his family influenced him to stay and he has friends up there as well. i just wasnt enough for him to stay.. it sucks! we didnt even realise it. they never even tried to work it out, to even speak to us! NOTHING! and then BAM!! Their gone. i begged and waited as well. then i was angry and texted him i need to move on with my life i cant be friends... he got pissed... and now its like this... nothing to hope for and im suffering. ohhh the life of a dumpee. i could write a whole book about it
LostOne1 Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 go find a hot girl to walk into class with nowwww!!!!! LOL best time to revenge! argh mine sounds abit like yours... he went up to help his family... and called me 2 hours before his flight back he wasnt coming back... he had 10 days to thik about it and he said he took his time thinking... but during all the time he LIED and told me his coming back no matter what.... of course his family influenced him to stay and he has friends up there as well. i just wasnt enough for him to stay.. it sucks! we didnt even realise it. they never even tried to work it out, to even speak to us! NOTHING! and then BAM!! Their gone. i begged and waited as well. then i was angry and texted him i need to move on with my life i cant be friends... he got pissed... and now its like this... nothing to hope for and im suffering. ohhh the life of a dumpee. i could write a whole book about it Well it is what it is.. I guess it shows our ex's just didn't want us enough or they would have made it work some how. My ex did at one point tell me she wanted to work it out. I told her I was basically selling everything she gave me. I wanted nothing to do with it now. THen she chased after me for a bit and decided to work it out. Then the day we were supposed to meet she flaked out and ignored me. And when I texted her asking what was going on she said she doesn't want too anymore. I think it was all a game. She KNEW she had me on her leash and could control me. I guess that's why I enjoy NC, because I know she has no control over me now. She can't pull or push me now. It's all about where I want to go or do with my emotions. As for revenge.. I have something sweeter, but it's not really revenge. it's more of killing 2 birds with 1 stone type of deal.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 As for revenge.. I have something sweeter, but it's not really revenge. it's more of killing 2 birds with 1 stone type of deal. OK please SPILL!!! you cant say something like that and not say it out!
LostOne1 Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 As for revenge.. I have something sweeter, but it's not really revenge. it's more of killing 2 birds with 1 stone type of deal. OK please SPILL!!! you cant say something like that and not say it out! haha when the time is right I will post it
Njeanne Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 Seriously...December a perfect month to break up or what?
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 Seriously...December a perfect month to break up or what? Seems like it... Just before Xmas. To maximize the pain you know. Then it prolongs to New Years and VALENTINES day! If u want revenge on ur partner. Break up before Xmas! For ever lasting pain
Njeanne Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 Seems like it... Just before Xmas. To maximize the pain you know. Then it prolongs to New Years and VALENTINES day! If u want revenge on ur partner. Break up before Xmas! For ever lasting pain Reconciliation even possible with break ups like these at all? Or is "oh, dumped in december it's permanently over" >.>
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 Reconciliation even possible with break ups like these at all? Or is "oh, dumped in december it's permanently over" >.> I would like to think its permanent. But right now if my ex was to come back crying, I might just turn into mush and give in. Sighhhhhhhh
Njeanne Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 I would like to think its permanent. But right now if my ex was to come back crying, I might just turn into mush and give in. Sighhhhhhhh *sigh* I really thought I was important too him... We were best friends for year, but no he had to fall out of love with me and never tell me and break up two weeks before festivities... -.- You can't even trust your best friend anymore to be your partner...
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 *sigh* I really thought I was important too him... We were best friends for year, but no he had to fall out of love with me and never tell me and break up two weeks before festivities... -.- You can't even trust your best friend anymore to be your partner... I completely agree. Even now I'm still in tears. 4 years didn't mean anything to him. He told me I was the most important. None of it was true. he broke up with me in the most harsh way possible. Why wud he do that?
Njeanne Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 I completely agree. Even now I'm still in tears. 4 years didn't mean anything to him. He told me I was the most important. None of it was true. he broke up with me in the most harsh way possible. Why wud he do that? I don't know. :'( Mine even bought airplane ticket to visit me still, told our "mutual" friend who lives far away that we are couple week before he broke it off. I told him to tell her we broken up, he said he would. I got in contact with her and she said he never told her, she was shocked because he said sweet things about me and that when she is online on skype he is offline. She is shocked and worried for me, she thought he was more in love with me then anything in world, shocked he never told me he was falling out of love. I wonder if i never took up that hobby (that took four evenings in the week away from him) that this would never have happend... All i know is he said "I realised I'm happier when you weren't around" "I'm 99.99% sure you're not person I wanna spend life with" You'd think you would fight for your best friend...something made him unhappy and make him fall out of love, but he never talks about his feelings...his communication skill on relationship was non existend...I miss him so much.
FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 I don't know. :'( Mine even bought airplane ticket to visit me still, told our "mutual" friend who lives far away that we are couple week before he broke it off. I told him to tell her we broken up, he said he would. I got in contact with her and she said he never told her, she was shocked because he said sweet things about me and that when she is online on skype he is offline. She is shocked and worried for me, she thought he was more in love with me then anything in world, shocked he never told me he was falling out of love. I wonder if i never took up that hobby (that took four evenings in the week away from him) that this would never have happend... All i know is he said "I realised I'm happier when you weren't around" "I'm 99.99% sure you're not person I wanna spend life with" You'd think you would fight for your best friend...something made him unhappy and make him fall out of love, but he never talks about his feelings...his communication skill on relationship was non existend...I miss him so much. I know how you feel trust me. my ex didnt communicate with me either... He hides everything. And then he makes his decision. I miss him like crazy right now and it hurts sooooo bad! I just saw on his Skype profile that he has more contacts now... his probably gone out getting people's numbers and Skype details. It hurts so bad and I'm hopless. Nothing I can do. I miss him so much and wud die to hear him. But I know it wud only make me worse.
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