FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 I don't know how to handle this anymore! I'm going around and around with my feelings! One minute I've accepted his gone... The next my urges to contact gets worse and worse. the memories keep coming back. The more I try to suppress it the worst it gets! I'm getting dizzy in this whirlpool I'm in, I just want to vomit now. His moved on and comfortable with his life! So why can't I? I want to get out but I can't. I'm sick of coming bak to this horrible feeling
th90 Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 Don't suppress your feelings. Cry if you have to. Let it out. You'll feel better and you'll swear for crying out loud and make sure you won't shed another tear for him. Then you'll feel horrible again. You'll be depressed and you'll cry again. Next thing you know you're swearing and making the same promise you made from your last episode of crying fits. It's a vicious cycle. With time, you'll stop having these down days and more happy days. I haven't cried for 2-3weeks. I was one of those who cried everyday at the beginning.
Author FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Author Posted January 13, 2013 How long have you been broken up for? It's been a month since he dumped me... But a week after we contacted. He told me he still loved me... After that I stopped contacting and he texted if we wanted to talk as friends and I rejected that. Then I angry texted him about a week or two ago. No reply from him. Then his friend called me two nights ago... So I guess knowing about him or hearing really puts me back in this spot.
Author FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Author Posted January 13, 2013 Don't suppress your feelings. Cry if you have to. Let it out. You'll feel better and you'll swear for crying out loud and make sure you won't shed another tear for him. Then you'll feel horrible again. You'll be depressed and you'll cry again. Next thing you know you're swearing and making the same promise you made from your last episode of crying fits. It's a vicious cycle. With time, you'll stop having these down days and more happy days. I haven't cried for 2-3weeks. I was one of those who cried everyday at the beginning. I'm really scared that in six months time ill still be like this... I have a couple of ok moments but its not strong enough to hold the Hurt afterwards. Why am I going through this and his completely fine? A guy that claims to love me so much and wud cherish the memories. The memories HURT me! I don't want them. His not right for me but I want him back SO BAD. It's long distance now since he went back. So it's a little better not seeing him I guess It's ruining my life. There's times when I will just e so depress I tune out people around me. I'm making other miserable with me!
Loved77 Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 It's been a month since he dumped me... But a week after we contacted. He told me he still loved me... After that I stopped contacting and he texted if we wanted to talk as friends and I rejected that. Then I angry texted him about a week or two ago. No reply from him. Then his friend called me two nights ago... So I guess knowing about him or hearing really puts me back in this spot. It's only early days. Go NC with him any anyone who can give you information about him. This will be hard but time will make it easier
Author FailedFirstLove Posted January 13, 2013 Author Posted January 13, 2013 It's only early days. Go NC with him any anyone who can give you information about him. This will be hard but time will make it easier I have a feeling after a few weeks ill get another contact. Which really scares me cause ill be back here again. Even f I dot pick up. But if I just know there is attempt. He won't come back. I know that and I want to be over this. I've stopped contact. It scares me to haf any contact. I don wanna know his moved on. Don't want to know what his doing or anything. Unless his hurting and in pain haha
th90 Posted January 13, 2013 Posted January 13, 2013 I'm really scared that in six months time ill still be like this... I have a couple of ok moments but its not strong enough to hold the Hurt afterwards. Why am I going through this and his completely fine? A guy that claims to love me so much and wud cherish the memories. The memories HURT me! I don't want them. His not right for me but I want him back SO BAD. It's long distance now since he went back. So it's a little better not seeing him I guess It's ruining my life. There's times when I will just e so depress I tune out people around me. I'm making other miserable with me! I promise you won't be like this in six months The first month is the hardest and you've survived it. Now onto the second month! Keep striving on. Why am I going through this and his completely fine? Because you haven't let go. I also have gone ignoring people to the point of being asked what have they done wrong or anything to offend me. Sometimes we just want to shut everyone out, but try not to do it. 1
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